ache ache

day two of being home with this awful sensation consuming my mouth. it hurts to open it or speak. i have not been able to eat real food for almost 4 days, tea and water being my exceptions. swallowing saliva is a task in itself. it may take up to six weeks to heal entirely, and that is because the insurance has some issues with covering my $122 medication. so i have to wait this out. maybe just live off of water, tea, and soggy cereal if that is even a possibility. my mouth just aches so badly, ijust want to wake up and be all better. i  want to spend theday running around outside. but i am too weak to even dream of such things.

hopefully my nap heals me. please let it be so.

p.s. inflammation of the brain may occur.

i read too much stuff online

p.p.s.

i broke down crying twice today.

once because i could not even eat a small piece of cheese, and when it burned to swallow water.

and it seems the more i sleep the worse it gets when i wake up

love.love