This is what happened.

Currently listening to : ‘Live Human’ – Amplifier

‘ Now that I’m frozen like a crystal Ice Age…’

"And so it begins" was the name of my very first entry on here. It was dated November the 24th, of 2002. It hadn’t quite struck me that on this same journal where a 20 year old college student would every now and again show up and tell you about this in his life, or that in his life, another boy had once written his poor naratives and hopeful shots at fiction. It’s crazy that the last four years of my life are kind of rooted here, you know? I guess I wanted a new go. I’m not the same I used to be then – shit, I’m not the same guy I was 6 months ago. And that’s fine. It happens and it kind of bothered me that there was a fractal journal here; someone who knows their grammar and someone who was just learning. Someone who is working, going to school and trying to balance in everything else as opposed to someone who just wanted to get the fuck out of highschool. Besides, it’s kind of embarrasing to think that my regular readers might go digging around and find those terrible excuses of poems. Ooh, scary. Haha, anyway, what i did was save my diary onto my computer – all 270 plus entries neatly saved on one fat file that I might one day dig around salvage parts of poems, stories, whatever. And so here we are. A new start. A lot has changed, like I said, and there was so much stuff in here that….well, just wasn’t valid anymore, you know? A new start, yes. Fresh.

I have so much to tell you. There’s things that I should have written about but never got caught up enough to write about them. Stick around, huh? I’ve got things to share. Let’s be friends.

– Xavier 

 
Me, all those forever’s ago.