My Way

My way

I hope, I wish and I pray. My hope seemed nearly come true and I think it was nearly realised in all my desire. But it turns out cruel and it never comes true. If God has the order of not letting it becoming true, I really hope that do not take me having the hope. Never give me such warm beams of sunlights. It would be a good idea to leave me in the dark at the beginning rather than fooling me around. It was too cruel to face the reality. Life is too hard to imagine. 

Maybe it is God’s will to make such a life challenge. I am willing to take challenge to make life more meaningful and fun. But now I am lost. I get older. I get weaker. I get frustrated. I am now at the crossway. I do not really know my way and how I can do more to make myself contributing. I really wish to reactivate my energy and contribute to my careers.

What’s my way? I am always enquiring how it can be figured out. I am such a loser. I am such a ironic fool? Life messes up and things are terrible. 

I desperately need an answer… I beg.