Hey Mr… Mutant??

 I woke up this morning with someone saying this to me in my head. Wierd. But after yesterday and just the unhappyness therein, I realized that I have to do so much more to get to a space where I am happyest most. I will get to that space, too. Miss Savannah officially relinquished her spot in my life as a significant other. I probably was mean about it all, but my thing.. I am tired of the back and forth with women. I have so much more going in my life and in my spirit, that if you are not in the space of wanting to just support me throughout the struggle therein, then  I have no use for you. I don’t need someone on the outside looking in only to give me all this advice and such. That’s not what I am looking for.. suddenly, I miss Spree Suga. I had someone the store yesterday from Portland, Ore and I automatically thought about her. She has truly grown into a wonderful person. Hey Mr. Mutant… where have you been? I don’t know man… I see I have a long ways to go. I really do. I guess I really do need to walk this line by myself and stop expecting someone to hold hands with me while I do so. Miss Savannah called last night, but she has added to the pain in my heart that I was kinda cold to her on the phone. *sighs* I don’t know man… I just feel like a fool for even wanting to get down with her. She read my blog: http://supreme-ronmexico.blogspot.com  on yesterday and was apparently disagreeable with what I was saying in the latest entry of "3400 words." I don’t know. I try to be honest with myself and my peers about life. I just need some love man. That’s all. I just need some support. That’s all I expect right about now. A strong woman, who can endure while I am down.. cause you can definitely believe I will for her. All day long. I do it now. I did it in the past, but dammit… I can’t even get it in return and it sucks. But its okay… I will be alright. It’s just me and the Lord now….. lets get it..

Hey Mr. Mutant… where have you been?