Actual Thoughts of….Miss Germany (part 1)

Man, this is 1 of 3 actual thoughts. I wanted to start with Miss Germany, because she has been the main character of this diary since the day of conception. Besides, I have been displeased with Miss Germany for a month now, and more and more… it hurts that she doesn’t know any better than to at least….. find a new person to gain some happiness from. I mean, Miss Germany has taken advantage of me in many, many ways. I bought her mother her mother’s day present. Miss Germany didn’t even have the money to get it. I got it, because I cared enough for the both of them to do so. I also bought her mother her birthday present since it was 3 days after Mother’s Day…. Miss Germany did not have the money. But I loved her so much, that I didnt care and I wanted her to get her mother something. I know how important those days are to moms…they gave birth to us for Christ’s sake. This not to say that I regret it, but I dont like being taken advantage of, ya know. We had sex May 6-7, and then…. she turns the fuck around and fucks JuneBug 2 weeks later. I knew it would happen. It was inevitable. She does this shit, because she "dont like being alone." I think thats pure bullshit. She had no fuckin’ desire of wanting to work things out with me. Once I recieved confirmation of this prophecy that I spoke, I totally resented her. JuneBug will never be me, and will never do twice as much for her as I have done. He will never care for her or cater to her as I have done. Why? Because he’s all for himself. I took care of her when she was drunk. I was there for her when that muthafucka fucked that other bitch. I have been there for her altogether for the last 5 years, but yet she doesn’t want me. Ain’t that some shit? Fuck Miss Germany, y’all.  Last Saturday, I was Soul Sista’s and Miss Germany called. She wanted to talk to me, and Soul Sista knew that I didnt want to talk to her, but she pushed me to do so. This would be the first time I spoke to her since Friday, May 13th at my high school. I hesitated, but I picked up the phone and spoke 3 things to her and I got off the phone. Only a 2 minute conversation. Next thing you know she asks Soul Sista, "Does he know that JuneBug and I are back together?" Soul Sista responded, "Not officially. He prophesized it." The conversation ended thereafter. I left the house saddened by all of this….

It didnt help that I had a dream about ALL of us this past. I stayed with JuneBug in an apartment…..I cant understand none of this shit, but I know one thing. I am tired of it all. I will be totally emancipated from all of this really soon. I guarantee. I am still pissed at Miss Germany and have no desire of talking or chillin’ with her ever again in life. Fuck her and him. If she wants to get dogged out by a muthafucka, who dont give a damn about her, then thats her business. I have done what I could do and I am finished..

Part 2- Soul Sista & Coxxy Woxxy…….