Brain Dump

Today feels better. I still feel weighed down by work and responsibilities, but trying to utilize the 3 day weekend to get some space from it all and focus on just doing things that feed my soul.

This morning has been very lazy. I scrolled a bit on socials, listened to some up hype music while I shaved, got dressed, played some word games online and now I’m sitting here deciding to do a little brain dump before I figure out the next step of my day. Husband is out at the in-laws helping put up a porch roof, but I have a friend in town I’m meeting up with in a few hours to go park skating so I opted out of the in-law visit today. I still have about 2 hours of time to kill before I need to leave.

There are a number of things I could do, but I end up spending most of my time trying to figure out what I want to do that I end up just doing nothing. Or more scrolling. But that won’t help my mental state. I should start a list of things I want to do and put it somewhere really visible for when I have time to kill, but I’m feeling indecisive af.

Unrelated to my boredom but related to my mental health, I decided to purge a lot of old half dead or completely dead plants a few weeks ago. It felt like such a daunting task, but I couldn’t keep staring at all the ones dying that I knew would require too much effort on my part to bring back to life, so they all got chucked in the compost pile. I re-potted a bunch and bought a few new ones to liven up my space and that feels good. I’ve been consistent enough with remembering to water them and turn on grow lights so hoping that added bit of greenery that isn’t depressing to look at with help. It’s the little things right?

Eating has been another very hard task lately. I love food, it’s not something I usually struggle with at all. Lately however I just can’t seem to be interested in anything so I just starve instead, makes total sense. I guess that would probably be the best move at the moment, go feed myself before I go skating in the heat.

This entry really has no point, but I guess it doesn’t need to? I just need to get my thoughts out. Maybe if I’m more consistent with that it’ll help my brain not feel like it’s about to burst at the seams. Anyhow, guess I should put on shoes and get in the car and force myself to go find something to eat. Later.