Mosaic

 

In my darkest hours I sometimes find myself in a mindset capable of disregarding the flow of the giant vortex that most of our thoughts and dreams are swirling in and forced to follow.

 

 

 

 

 

How dare they tell us the way to do everything? Can’t they see any further ahead than a meteorologist? Do I need to blame myself again? Why can’t we have it all?


Play like you don’t care if anyone ever sees what you’ve done?


Write like nobody else can read?

 

 

 

 

I think my SAD (Seasonal Affective Disorder) is kicking in. The days are getting short… and cloudy. My season is almost over: FUNG

 

 

 

 

Fun and games. Being comfortable now takes work. Layers for this. Different layers for that. Lots of layers. Gobs of layers. Turn this on. Turn that off. Heat this up. Find my hat. Find my gloves. Change my socks.

 

 

 

 

 

I felt a hunger for more light and stared at the light falling uselessly into the shadowy crevices of each window. I got out my glass cutter and started blocking these black holes with pieces of mirror… like a mosaic.

 

 

 

 

This way, more light can ricochet into the house. I washed the inside panes, the first time I’ve ever touched them in all these years. [turns head down] I even took out the screens. “A window screen reduces light by as much as 30%.” I used foam insulation to provide the proper spacing, too.

 

 

 

 

I love how much sunlight pours into the house now. I don’t need to turn lights on. The house is even brighter on cloudy days.

 

 

 

 

 

The only thing it cost me was time.

 

 

 

 

We have all the time in the world.

 

 

 

 

 

 


 

 


 

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October 15, 2012

what are those green things? heads or bats?

October 15, 2012

what are those green things? heads or bats?

October 15, 2012

what are those green things? heads or bats?

October 15, 2012

I knew you loved Obama

October 15, 2012

I knew you loved Obama

October 15, 2012

I knew you loved Obama

you washed windows?! you really were a man on a mission! my mental state begins to decline without enough sunlight, too and i can relate. love the stained glass panels and the drying tobacco is also a nice touch. 😉

you washed windows?! you really were a man on a mission! my mental state begins to decline without enough sunlight, too and i can relate. love the stained glass panels and the drying tobacco is also a nice touch. 😉

you washed windows?! you really were a man on a mission! my mental state begins to decline without enough sunlight, too and i can relate. love the stained glass panels and the drying tobacco is also a nice touch. 😉

You can’t have it all…where would you put it? Very nice. I love natural light.

You can’t have it all…where would you put it? Very nice. I love natural light.

You can’t have it all…where would you put it? Very nice. I love natural light.

October 16, 2012

NOTE: I don’t like Obama. I made that to sell, but it didn’t get one bid on Ebay.

October 16, 2012

NOTE: I don’t like Obama. I made that to sell, but it didn’t get one bid on Ebay.

October 16, 2012

NOTE: I don’t like Obama. I made that to sell, but it didn’t get one bid on Ebay.

October 16, 2012

Love the stained glass pictures! I love lots of light.

October 16, 2012

Love the stained glass pictures! I love lots of light.

October 16, 2012

Love the stained glass pictures! I love lots of light.

RE: the obama one .. if you brought it over when you visit next, I may be interested. Good idea about the mirrors – I will mention to “the boss”.

RE: the obama one .. if you brought it over when you visit next, I may be interested. Good idea about the mirrors – I will mention to “the boss”.

RE: the obama one .. if you brought it over when you visit next, I may be interested. Good idea about the mirrors – I will mention to “the boss”.

October 16, 2012

chuckles did you dislike him enough to loudly declare that. Hahaha sorry i just saw Obama, what else could I think. that is what happens when you decide what others are thinking. hangs head.

October 16, 2012

chuckles did you dislike him enough to loudly declare that. Hahaha sorry i just saw Obama, what else could I think. that is what happens when you decide what others are thinking. hangs head.

October 16, 2012

chuckles did you dislike him enough to loudly declare that. Hahaha sorry i just saw Obama, what else could I think. that is what happens when you decide what others are thinking. hangs head.

October 16, 2012

all those on the diary told me to take it off him and some went so far as to say I was delinquent for not doing the right thing by him and then along comes Udder. I am in such two minds about all of this. maybe his disrespect is his age and thing he is going through. I am so broken at the moment and i am not being a good parent or anything to anyone. but I am honouring how I feel. Imiss you jaunts over to my place.

October 16, 2012

all those on the diary told me to take it off him and some went so far as to say I was delinquent for not doing the right thing by him and then along comes Udder. I am in such two minds about all of this. maybe his disrespect is his age and thing he is going through. I am so broken at the moment and i am not being a good parent or anything to anyone. but I am honouring how I feel. Imiss you jaunts over to my place.

October 16, 2012

all those on the diary told me to take it off him and some went so far as to say I was delinquent for not doing the right thing by him and then along comes Udder. I am in such two minds about all of this. maybe his disrespect is his age and thing he is going through. I am so broken at the moment and i am not being a good parent or anything to anyone. but I am honouring how I feel. Imiss you jaunts over to my place.

October 18, 2012

Must be time to fly south.

October 18, 2012

Must be time to fly south.

October 18, 2012

Must be time to fly south.

October 20, 2012

ryn – that so many men these days are less dominant or masculine is definitely a fact and a trend, though the “why” is a matter of much debate. Is it because, as you say, with the increasing divorce rate and breaking up of nuclear families, boys often have no other role models than a strong mother, or is it compounded similarly by the empowerment of women in the workplace, even when the fathers are still present, they no longer hold sway in the family as they did when they were the sole breadwinners? Or is it the general advancements of society that men’s careers are more mental and less physical and less aggressive than they were 100 years or more ago, so there is little encouragement either in the family or the workplace for men to be as dominant as they used to be when they were physically strong and either fighting wars or building houses or working the farm etc. Could be a combination of many of these factors, or others. I used to think that I, being a very strong woman, attracted weak men. But now that I almost exclusively get my dates via the personals and characterize myself as a feminine, old fashioned damsel seeking a brute, that theory is eliminated.

October 20, 2012

ryn – that so many men these days are less dominant or masculine is definitely a fact and a trend, though the “why” is a matter of much debate. Is it because, as you say, with the increasing divorce rate and breaking up of nuclear families, boys often have no other role models than a strong mother, or is it compounded similarly by the empowerment of women in the workplace, even when the fathers are still present, they no longer hold sway in the family as they did when they were the sole breadwinners? Or is it the general advancements of society that men’s careers are more mental and less physical and less aggressive than they were 100 years or more ago, so there is little encouragement either in the family or the workplace for men to be as dominant as they used to be when they were physically strong and either fighting wars or building houses or working the farm etc. Could be a combination of many of these factors, or others. I used to think that I, being a very strong woman, attracted weak men. But now that I almost exclusively get my dates via the personals and characterize myself as a feminine, old fashioned damsel seeking a brute, that theory is eliminated.

October 20, 2012

ryn – that so many men these days are less dominant or masculine is definitely a fact and a trend, though the “why” is a matter of much debate. Is it because, as you say, with the increasing divorce rate and breaking up of nuclear families, boys often have no other role models than a strong mother, or is it compounded similarly by the empowerment of women in the workplace, even when the fathers are still present, they no longer hold sway in the family as they did when they were the sole breadwinners? Or is it the general advancements of society that men’s careers are more mental and less physical and less aggressive than they were 100 years or more ago, so there is little encouragement either in the family or the workplace for men to be as dominant as they used to be when they were physically strong and either fighting wars or building houses or working the farm etc. Could be a combination of many of these factors, or others. I used to think that I, being a very strong woman, attracted weak men. But now that I almost exclusively get my dates via the personals and characterize myself as a feminine, old fashioned damsel seeking a brute, that theory is eliminated.

October 26, 2012

It’s great that you’ve got more light in. I can relate. I do all I can to get light into my place. I just hate to be in dark places. Love the stained glass.

October 26, 2012

It’s great that you’ve got more light in. I can relate. I do all I can to get light into my place. I just hate to be in dark places. Love the stained glass.

October 26, 2012

It’s great that you’ve got more light in. I can relate. I do all I can to get light into my place. I just hate to be in dark places. Love the stained glass.

November 7, 2012

lol the obama cracked me up… i remember when you did it. i love your house

November 7, 2012

lol the obama cracked me up… i remember when you did it. i love your house

November 7, 2012

lol the obama cracked me up… i remember when you did it. i love your house

November 19, 2012

I’d forgotten you did stain glass. I haven’t done any in yrs as I lost all my tools to ex through divorce and then whole second set to ex co- habitor. I made the mistake of interesting them in the craft and making gifts of grinder wheels and really good cutters to them so when the breakups occurred they had most of the good tools anyway so I lost out.The last time ex moved he left his glass here

November 19, 2012

I’d forgotten you did stain glass. I haven’t done any in yrs as I lost all my tools to ex through divorce and then whole second set to ex co- habitor. I made the mistake of interesting them in the craft and making gifts of grinder wheels and really good cutters to them so when the breakups occurred they had most of the good tools anyway so I lost out.The last time ex moved he left his glass here

November 19, 2012

I’d forgotten you did stain glass. I haven’t done any in yrs as I lost all my tools to ex through divorce and then whole second set to ex co- habitor. I made the mistake of interesting them in the craft and making gifts of grinder wheels and really good cutters to them so when the breakups occurred they had most of the good tools anyway so I lost out.The last time ex moved he left his glass here

November 19, 2012

but took the tools. Typical asshat behavior. With no space to cut and grind without risking the little ones lungs I just haven’t bothered but maybe next summer I’ll move it outside and do a little to satisfy the urge. I forget how to make a reostat plug but utube no doubt has a video on how to. They do for most things. I like your panels anyway and the room looks bright and cozy. Hugs

November 19, 2012

but took the tools. Typical asshat behavior. With no space to cut and grind without risking the little ones lungs I just haven’t bothered but maybe next summer I’ll move it outside and do a little to satisfy the urge. I forget how to make a reostat plug but utube no doubt has a video on how to. They do for most things. I like your panels anyway and the room looks bright and cozy. Hugs

November 19, 2012

but took the tools. Typical asshat behavior. With no space to cut and grind without risking the little ones lungs I just haven’t bothered but maybe next summer I’ll move it outside and do a little to satisfy the urge. I forget how to make a reostat plug but utube no doubt has a video on how to. They do for most things. I like your panels anyway and the room looks bright and cozy. Hugs