Ladies and Gents, Introducing My Son

Hellooooooo My Wonderful Friends!

It’s about 11pm here, Tuesday night. Aunty (aka Emma) is staying with myself and the kids for company, and I have just uploaded all the pics from today. Tai touched mother earth at 2:47 pm on the 22nd of July 2008! He bounced in at a nice 6 pound 8 ounces, and streached out to 48 and a half cmtrs. I am not bias, I speak the truth, the little man is nothing short of GORGIOUS!!!!!!! I am 100% in love with my son!

Our morning began at 6am, Ani could’nt eat after 7am so I made her a light brekki and we got ourselves prepared for the big day. We arrived at the hospital around 10am and after being admitted for day surgery got dressed up in our sexy operating room garb. I think the highlight of Ani’s outfit were the sexy ass nickers she had to wear 😛 As all you girls who have been here before would know, the paper thin rubbish they give you to wear are nothing short of A WASTE OF FUCKING TIME lol!!! Still though, she would look good in a 1920’s newspaper.

I wasn’t allowed in while she got the spinal block, but I was treated like the most important man on earth once they came back into the waiting room, collected me and lead me into the theatre to see my baby girl on the table ready to deliver. It is at this point that I need to paint the picture for you, to try to explain the feeling a father gets moments before his son breathes deep that first gasp of air. I have lived side by side with this angel for the last 10 months, watched her grow our baby, experiance the changes that take place, only to reach the morning of his birth and feel him move inside her belly for the last time.

I recall just this morning, just before we stood up and walked out the door, looking into her eyes and seeing the smile in them, knowing that all that we have been preparing for was about to come to life. If there was only one of us who was calm, it was Ani! My stomach was turning over and over, and I could see nothing but my own emotions losing the grip of control. See, I never though I would ever find the right woman, let alone ever see and hold, my own blood son! It holds very much credit in my life, since I am the last born male in my family line. Our McCoy family line dies with me without a son, and up untill this morning, was destined to do so. Now though, we all now are aware, it lives on!

From the moment I walked into the theatre, I realised why I love this woman so much, she was absolutely beautiful! Even though she was covered by green cloth, she looked at me as I walked in with eyes that screamed “come to me baby”. The pride in her face was the kind that make a man want to cry. Everything that had happened before acumulated in one massive emotion at that one moment in time. I looked to her and saw a woman who was so proud to be going through all that pain, just to give me the one thing I always desired. There was nothing you could do to her at that moment that would sway her from her task, and I fell in love with her all over again, right there, right then!

I watched her move into a state of unease as she struggled with the feeling of being pulled and prodded. She whispered repeatedly that it made her feel ill. She had no pain, but the scence of having her organs moved around was so unpleasent. Before I knew it, I heard him! The little bumps I had felt only hours before, were now transformed into the tiny cries of my son breathing the same air I inhaled! I lost it! Not to the point that I blubbered like a child scolded, but that of a man unable to hold back the tears of a matter so emotional it consumed all his thoughts. I could not stop them coming, they just flooded my eyes and my chest tightened up to the point I felt short of breath. I felt a gentle touch on my shoulder and turned to hear a nurse say “hey Daddy, would you like to go over and see you son”? 

If it is safe to say, this was the most inviting operating theatre I have ever walked into, and not just because I wasn’t the one on the table! There were windows all around, and today was a beautiful day! The sunlight was streaming through the windows, the freezing temps outside were dulled by the warm air in, and I walked slowly over to the weigh in table. My stomach turned inside out, and I actually stopped before I looked over the shoulder of the mid wife. But……… as soon as I did, I laid eyes on the child I had just helped create. Guys, he was beautiful! He was covered in vernix, the white/grey, thick waxy covering that all newborns are dressed with, but even then, I could see he was mine. His nose, his chin, the way he streached out! My baby boy! 

My eyes were on Tai, my ears were on Ani, calling to me, “Baby! What does he look like? Is he beautiful?”. Life is cruel sometimes, Ani had to carry him, she had to go through the pain, and I was still the one to see him first! I raced back over to her, catching a glimpse of her tummy on the way. Now I make no secret of this, I am the weakest man when it comes to my stomach! However, there was no way in hell that I was going to make Ani feel like there was anything wrong. I just turned away and kissed her. Seeing the one you love lying there with her tummy open and bleeding is not the image you want to re live, but seeing that just made me all the more love her, and know a little more what all you beautiful women go through to build families! You should all know this, you are amazing creatures! What you are capable of as human beings goes beyond logic! I love you all for what you go through, just to build a family, just to give a man a son or daughter, simply for doing what you all think you have to. You go through a traumatic experiance that ALL men I know would crumble and fall in a heap contemplating. How many men have you heard say “if I could, I would do it for her”, yeah, well if they saw what I saw today, if they were half the men they claimed to be, they would bloody well fess up and admit they would be shit scared to even think about it!!!!!! 

For all that my Angel has just gone through, there is one thing I will now always do, if she says “help me now” I will jump to the mark, I will never let her question lead to a statement again. There is nothing I can ever do, either physically or emotionally that can even come close to the level she showed me today, and why would she do it? For no other reason but love!

Tonight my wonderful friends, I am in a state of euphoria, a feeling that will not

soon leave my soul. I am in love, no….. I am SO IN LOVE!!!!!

Introducing my SON, ladies and gents, this is Tai Patrick McCoy!

I Soooooo Love You Guys!

Luke xoxoxo