Kissing Krystelle Goodbye :(

Hello All,

This morning on my way off to work I kissed daughter number one goodbye. School holidays start here today and Krystelle is heading back to Brisbane and the Gold Coast for the two week school holidays. I know, it sounded like she was going for good, but by the same token, it feels like she is. I have become very selfish when it comes to my girl, in a good way I hope, but I have become so used to seeing her every day and hearing her teenage rambling, that even now as I sit here writing I miss her.

 

I don’t know how Carol let her go so easily, I could never let her go now, NEVER! It was my mother and my sister Rae who paid for her flights this time. Mum told me it wasn’t fair for Ani and I to foot the bill when she was the one who desperately wanted to see her grand daughter. I respect mum for that. She was going to get Carol (my ex wife) to pay half of the flight costs, but negated when Carol put on such a fuss about having to pay when she wasn’t the one who wanted to see Krystelle. Can you believe that! Carol hasn’t seen her own first born daughter since Christmas 2008, and couldn’t even pay mum a measly $75.00 towards the flights!!!!! In addition to that, she complained that she had to drive an hour and a half to drop Tabetha off to see her sister!! It aint over in that regard I have to tell you, I won’t be taking that kind of attitude lying down!

 

I am fast realizing that Carol is jealous of Krystelles life! I know it sounds crazy, but she has such a good life here with us and Carol honestly thought Kris would cave and return home within a month. The truth is that even her love for Tabetha and her constant craving for her sister would not keep Krystelle from living here with Ani, the boys and I. She will never go home to her mother, her words not mine.

 

My poor girl! Her tummy bugs were dancing up a storm as Ani dropped her to the airport this afternoon! She had spent the day with Ani, including our last visit with the mid wife. She got to hear Tai’s heartbeat before she left, and have some lunch before boarding the plane on her journey to the Gold Coast airport. The problem I had was that at thirteen years of age (still a baby) she had to get a connecting flight at Sydney airport to the Goldie. It was simple enough for you and me, but for a young girl who was all on her own the thought was daunting! Not to add to the experience, her connecting flight at Sydney was cancelled and she had to wait an additional three hours in the airport terminal to catch the next plane!!!!! None of the assholes at Virgin Air even bothered to help her! I had to talk to her over the phone while at work till she found her gate!

 

Still though, true to form, and DEFINATLY my lil angel, she bought some food and drink, a magazine, and waited till her boarding time J She landed about an hour ago now and I have just had a call from her saying she was back a Nanas house ready to have dinner! I wanted her to talk to me but all I got was “DAAAAAD!!! C’MON! Nana has made this HUGE meal ok! I’ll call you after! SHEESH!! Can’t you wait a while?!!!” Yup, lil miss attitude has left the building lol! Thirteen going on 80!!!!!! My sister was there with Kristi’s cousins Patrick and Cormack, the “Mini Monk” Tabby, and of course Nana J

 

Mum has planned so much for them all to do over the next two weeks and although I KNOW she is going to have a wonderful time, there is one thing that is making me upset more than anything. Krystelle has said repeatedly that she does not know how she will be able to say bye to Tabby again L It is becoming an emotional battle for her being away from her sister to the point that she has asked me a couple of times if Tabby could come here to live too. That would be amazingly difficult I have to say. Apart from the fact that there would be six people in one house, one of those being a new born baby, the cost of living would crush us. As it is I am still paying my ex wife maintenance even though Krystelle is here, and the price of rent for a six bedroom house is…… well let’s just say well out of our depth! Still though, that’s a bridge I will no doubt cross when I come to it. I have to tell you all, to have ALL my kids here with me is a choice I would very easily make on the spur of the moment with my eyes shut! I love my kids!

 

On another note as a couple

of you have made mention, Ani and I are going to be face to face with Tai VERY soon! I can’t tell you all how excited I am. As I have said before, I never thought I would ever have another child, let alone a blood son, and I am beside myself with anticipation. My poor better half is twice the size and he is testing his Mummy to the MAX! Extremely active and growing bigger every day, he is leaving some new scars on his mother’s body. Though she feels pain much of the time with his strong kicks and tumble rolls, she would never change a thing and says that she feels her boy is part of her soul.

 

I couldn’t ever imagine being this happy in life, honestly, and I may even forgo moving back to the Gold Coast, instead to buy a house right here on the south coast of NSW. Yes I am away from mum and my sister Rae who desperately wants me to come back home, but this is may family and my love, and this is where all my friends are now. Ani’s friends have become mine, and they are life long friends! Ever met people in your life that you know over time will never leave you? Well I have, and they are all here. When it comes to Tabby, well I have plans there, but they will take a while to come to life, but as the add says, “It won’t happen over night, but it WILL happen”. Work is wonderful, infact it has progressed so well that my intentions of becoming a stay at home dad have gone. There is a definite promotion to a store manager roll in the pipe line for me, and it has been suggested by my regional manager that I reconsider my intensions to part company with them. SOOOOOO Freakin happy!!!! WOOOOOOT!!!!!! It would mean so much of a better life for my family, and not just financially. Ani has officially started maternity leave for six months, and at full pay I might add! Tai’s room is finished and all there is left to do now is wait for the lil grom to arriveJ.

 

Once he is born Ani and I are off to buy a people mover, she gets the sports car and I get the Dad Mobile lol, but I care not a jot lol! Mum, Rae, Patrick, Cormack, and the Mini Monk are coming to stay with us in September for seven days and I am close to tears in anticipation for that! Mum has been wonderful to the point of obscene cluckiness in regards to the new baby’s arrival and that makes me so happy! A new born has an uncanny way of bringing a family together, and ours is growing tighter every day.

 

The band has been dissolved before it even got off the ground, something that has left a bad taste in my mouth. Tez called me a month ago to inform me that he wanted “The Teddy Bear Assassins” to have a six month break, a break I know all to well means never again. I haven’t spoken to him since, mainly because I needed time to get over the call. After sitting down and finishing four songs I felt like I was kicked in the teeth and that it was all a waste of time. I know he would say that was not the case, but I know it is over for me. I can still be the king of karaoke though huh lol! The lead guitarist from my first band Darkshot has been in contact with me lately though, and he and I are working on remastering all our old tracks to studio quality so that will keep me busy from here on in.

 

So guys, I think that is all I have for now, better go call my wayward daughter before it gets too much later! I’ve posted a couple of pics of the lil girl below, as you can see, she dun look thirteen huh! Maybe now you know why I worry about her so much, AND why being under Daddy’s watchful eyes is the best place to be! :p

See why I keep a close eye!
And again!
NEED I SAY MORE! My Angel 🙂
At a recenct party, me ans Matt

 

I Love You Guys!

Luke. XOXOXO!!!!