First Appointment for #3

This morning I called my ob to schedule my first prenatal appointment. I was all set that I would ask if I could come the week of the 18th because I was hoping by that date I could get a transvaginal ultrsound that would allow me to see whatever is happening inside my body. I told the nurse on the phone I was only five weeks along, but she told me to go ahead and come in tomorrow. I am partially excited because I will at least get confirmation of pregnancy from something other than a pee stick, but bummed that I won’t get the ultrasound until my second appointment. It is so reassuring to be able to actually see that little heartbeat in there. I am praying that all goes well tomorrow. I’m nervous that I’ll find out I’m not pregnant or that my hcg levels are low/dropping etc. Please say a prayer for us that things go well!

I always gain weight right away when pregnant. I don’t get it–I seriously have gained FIVE pounds already and haven’t changed a thing with my diet. I’m trying to convince myself it’s just bloat. It has to be bloat, right?! I started the pregnancy around 108 and today weighed 112.4. Not freaking out. Not freaking out. Trying not to freak out…. Seriously, I am 30 years old and acting like I’m in highschool about this. Ridiculous.

I spent the last two days in a 12 hour workshop (9-4 each day) on a method of teaching called "Project Construct". How did I (or anyone?!) ever sit in grade school from 8-3?! I have absolutely lost my attention span. I ate my weight in Starbursts just to keep myself awake(maybe it’s not just bloat ;)). All in all it was a great workshop and I learned a lot. I’ve had high hopes of going back to get my masters, but if this round of "school" is any indication, it is going to be harder than it looks.

I am debating whether or not I should be a stay at home mom after #3 is born. I love my job, and honestly can’t imagine not going to work, but it’s hard to justify leaving two babies with an in-home sitter while I go off to take care of other kids. I am the only full day four year old preschool teacher, so Jacob would be in my class the year I am thinking about staying at home. I’ve always thought it would be fun to be his teacher, but also so very challenging…..lots of time before I would have to make any decisions.

Hoping to watch a fave’s wedding online from Vegas tonight! If I fall asleep and miss it, happy wedding day Reghan!!!