BAD NIGHT ~

Yesterday started out with me calling the bank again & this girl told me that they wouldn’t take all the overdraft charges out of my account right now. So from what she said, I assumed it was ok to go ahead with my scheduled bill paying. I got the tires fixed, & the windshild wriper, then did a little shopping at walmart. Was feeling happy that things were turning out ok. NOT….. to my surprise when I checked my bank again around 7 pm, I only had 60. It went from 707 to 60 in 8 hours!! 🙁   Well after all was deducted from what I paid out & the 167. od charges, thats all I had left. Thank goodness  for my part time job check that I will get tomorrow, otherwise I would be in really bad shape. Ofcouse most of it will go to finish paying my bills. Oh my goodness. I sure hope next month goes better. That I won’t have any car repairs or emergencies come about.

Anyways… I went to bed around midnight after playing FB games but tossed & turned. Kept worring,.. what am I going to do. Also on my mind was what my daugher had said on the phone. She said I need to come to her house so we could discuss my Will, get it in writing and noterized. I don’t like talking about death, funerals, wills etc as it seems to me like your getting ready to die & I’m still too full of life to think about that yet. Am I wrong to feel that way? I guess she’s doing it just in case, but I never said I wanted her in charge of my stuff etc. I don’t even like talking about it. But that was bothering me too which caused me to be awake most of the night crying.

I feel better today, just tired already. I just want to have my house clean & all the stuff put away, plently of food in the kitchen, bills paid, then be able to just stay home & play with my puppy. I have alot that I’m grateful, so I’m surely not complaining, but if someone was to say what would you like to change in life, that would be it.

Well I’m at work & its getting busy so I’ll write more later.