peaceful way to go..

i went to the store to pick up a few things. when i got back my mom told me that her sister(my aunt beverly) died in her sleep yesterday.
 
my cousin and his gf went to wake her up and there was no response.
they called 911 but by that time it was too late.
 
I dont know what to think, its kindof surreal.. i was just talking to her on the phone last wednesday and she seemed fine.
 
now shes gone… i dont deal with death the way "normal" ppl do, i dont show alot of emotion- im not cold to it. its just something i try to avoid.
 
when Dragos friend passed away last week i wanted to be a shoulder he could lean on and say all the right things to make him feel better but i couldnt.
 
i feel like im emotionally incapable to deal with matters like that.
 
so i guess arrangements will be made soon, she didnt have life insurance so im wondering how theyre going to manage, her family (my uncle and cousins) dont have alot of $ to put towards funeral costs.
 
all of this has got me thinking about getting life insurance soon. my son only has me to depend on, not to say my family doesnt help, but for the long run it could be beneficial for him if something ever did happen to me.
 
I hope for his sake nothing does.