eye never learn

my heart is hurting right now. dont know whatelse to say.. I cant believe he did that to me, out of all ppl. what an asshat, what makes it worse is that i cant stop thinking about him.

why cant i just erase him. ive been hurt/rejected many times in the past, why am i letting him get to me.

 i should be used to this by now. this sucks bigtime… *SIGH* im just sitting here trying to distract myself with other things, and its not working i might add. i did manage to watch a movie, apocolypto, pretty damn violent but i liked the ending..

but even during the movie i was thinking about him, where i went wrong, all the mistakes i made. the warning signs i ignored in the beginning. i just feel like curling up in the fetal position and crying right now.

i think im done, i put my heart out there too many times only for it to be stomped on. now its cold and unwilling to take another chance just to get burned again.