em0tional affair
work was ok today, little sleep deprived. i was up until 4am thinking about yesterday..
he called me 10times yesterday, i finally answered the last call around midnight and we talked for a minute.
told him i didnt believe anything he said anymore and i see him in a different light now.
he said he met her on yahoo 3 weeks ago and it was just texting, there was no physical contact.
i believe the no physical contact part only because of his work schedule he wouldnt have time to do that, if he isnt with me hes at work or with his family.
but even if it wasnt physical cheating it was definitely emotional cheating just for the simple fact he had to hide this from me and got caught the way he did with the text message.
on another note: who sends the wrong person a text message? if your going to hide something atleast be cautious about who you are sending a message to.
he claims he isnt interested in her and he didnt cross the line with the texts he sent her, but he had to be interested to give her his number in the first place.
he called me again around 6am this morning to apologize said he was wrong. now hes being super nice to me knowing hes in the doghouse and wants to come out here and see me. even talked about a camping trip for this weekend. he can forget about getting any sex from me..
*sigh* i sure know how to pick’em…
next subject..
it is hotter than hades outside and mommy dearest wont let me turn the AC on. so we have every fan on but all its doing is moving around the heat, little humid in here.
its times like this i wish we had a pool, the neighbors do but i dont know them well enough to ask if we could use the pool so thats a wrap.
i cant believe this month is ending and i have yet to find a place that will approve me, my issue is credit which im building back up..trying to pay my visa off and take care of the student loans.
plus i havent been at this job long.
other than that i dont have a record or anything, my rental history is fine. hopefully something will come up.
next week is the end of school for Elijah and im kinda dreading it.. he wont be in summer school so im not sure what other program i could put him in especially while im at work.
id hate to put him in to daycare, daycares suck around here and most of them dont really know how to deal with auti kids.
figure somethin out i guess.
nic
I hope something opens up soon for you. If he wasn’t interested then he shouldn’t have hide it for three weeks.
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I still say get rid of him. Here’s the update on MB. On mother’s day he cussed me out for calling him while he was at church like i was suppossed to know. A week later..saturday he blows my phone up around 1 pm. I don’t answer. That night he calls around 5, I answer, he says I owe him an apology, I say he owes me one. He says he was by my house earlier and thats why he blew me up.
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I tell him OH well, cuz I wasnt home anyway. He calls again around midnight wants to come over. I say no, and hang up. Sunday morning I get up and don’t hear my phone ring. At 9:15 am, I look and see i have 12 missed calls from MB. I call back and ask what the hell is wrong with him. He says he was in my neighborhood again. I again say OOH WELL i’m getting ready to leave at 10 am for church.
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He says he wants to stop by anyway just to “give me a hug and kiss”. I say what for? By the time you get here I will be walking out the door. He begs, I say what ever. 10 minutes to 10 am, he shows up. Ok, so here’s the deal. MB seems to think he is gonna lick the lucky charms before I go to church and I’m supposed to HAPPY cuz oral is something HE DOES NOT DO. I laugh at him.
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He of course loses his nerve and begs me to let him stick it in really quick. I keep laughing at him as he tries to tell me he misses me. UMM HELLOOOO you dont miss me, you miss my scooby snacks. UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH Oh and he also brings me up to date that his baby mama is psycho and i’m an angel compared to her. AHAHAH. I guess this was supposed to make me take him back. But i’m cool.
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Like I said. WEEEE can do better. It was hard to tell him no though. I still love him, but i’m tired of the mess. OH he even invited me to a club with him and his friends friday night. I wont hold my breath for that one. DAMN i just wrote an entire entry in your notes. Sorry girlie….
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seems like everytime yall are good,he messes up.you really can do better<3
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Something will come up!! Just keep thinking positive!!! Hugs!!
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Ugh men are so stupid. If you’re going to try to text 2 girls at the same time at least be careful with the names! You should defnietly keep him in the doghouse till he learns his lesson.lol
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I agree with comment 1, I hope things get sorted and I hope you can regain trust if not the relationship isnt even worth it.
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think optimistic with the apartment and everything. I hope your able to find a good program, summer thing for Elijah, btw i love that name! lol And you can really do better then the boy, you DESERVE better =)
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my credit isin’t the best but I’ve been able to get places….only thing is you have to be really aggressive and possible pay 2 months deposit….hope you find something soon…good luck!
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