contemplating..

to start with my diary was one of the lucky picks to get hacked into, i kept wondering why i couldnt sign in today, then i checked my email and seen they changed my password.

that explains it…
 
now onto the title… im starting to have serious doubts about moving in with him now.. i think im letting outside opinions mess with my head a little and now im scared shitless to live with him.
 
I have people telling me that moving in just makes a guy comfortable but they usually dont move forward because theyre getting everything they need, a housekeeper, cook, help with bills, sex on the regular why would a guy consider a marriage license when hes basically getting the perks of it all without the legalities?
 
he knows that i would eventually like a commitment, i am in no way rushing him he’s the one that brought up living together. but i guess im seeing things from different angles now and it has me second guessing our relationship.
 
I’ve seen the statistics of couples who live together are more than likely to breakup, and if they do marry they will likely divorce. i know its just stats but its kinda scary. we could be a statistic.
 
NexT*
 
to add on to that i got another psychic reading today after i went shopping lol.. now i know the future isnt set in stone but that reading just bothered me a bit.
 
i went back to the same reader from last time and he pretty much stuck with what he said the last time we talked. (atleast hes consistent)
 
He said Drago would break my heart eventually, and i should keep my independence and not move in with him yet. he still maintained that i would date and eventually marry someone Drago knows with the initial M
 
he brought up the catering job again, says i will get a job offer soon dealing with that, guess we’ll see.
 
He also said i would move back to Europe for a year and take a class there, ive always wanted to move back for awhile- i think that would be the ultimate goal for me.
 
**I havent told him any of this, cause he doesnt believe in it so i know he’ll just dismiss it and call me crazy. but whateveR.
 
NexT*
 
um.. Drago is a douchebag… lolz
 
i was outside helping my dad move some patio furniture and i had my cell in the living room, so i came back inside for something to drink.
 
(you have to experience the Texas heat to understand where im coming from)
 
..smh
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i seen that he called me 4 times, one voicemail saying he wont answer if i call him back. since i wont pick up the phone(childish much?)
I called him back anyway cause i knew he would answer.. he knows whatsuP =P
 
NexT*
 
i Got paid today so it was only natural for me to go shopping lol.. gawd i love the mall, feel like a kid in a candy store when im there. gotta prepare for the cold weather to come so i bought a couple of bootcut denim jeans, a few hoodies
 
and blk suede boots that kinda look like uggs, i went to victoria secrets after to look for a babydoll slip i seen on their site, but couldnt find it=/ i wanted to wear it for next weekends getaway ..it looks like this… i might have to order it online.
 

 
 
 
 
i also bought a few things from spencers in the *adult section* a pair of black furry handcuffs, a sexy coupon book and some good head strawberry lube  
 
NexT*
 
my sister is displaying "whore-like behavior"  .. i know your thinking how can u judge your sister like that? well she sent me an IM while i was on AOL
telling me that she cheated on her live-in boyfriend with some married man she met on a site called ADULTSPACE.
 
she told me they went to a motel and did the deed, i know i am far from perfect but that is just nasty. kinda see her in a different light now, but whatever its her life.. so im butting out of that one.

 
nic