Thank God for the Rain
i dunno. i been in a blogging mood lately. i guess since i aint been in a real talkin one i gotta get all this stuff off my chest somehow.
*singing* rain, rain, go away, come again some other day*. well i want the exact opposite. i want the rain to come and come hard and long.
most of you dont kno this, but i have this belief that everytime it rains God is crying for me. see, i want to cry, i even try to let it out sometimes. but it just stays in until it feels like i’m drowning in my tears. i havnt been sleeping much lately and i barely eat. work and classes dont make things any easier.
so today its raining, it hasnt rained in a while. so i thank God for the rain. for crying on my behalf. because i need it. i dunno watelse to do. whoelse to turn to. i mean i got people trying to be there for me. but for some reason its not the same. you kno how it is.
*example* lets say its sunday and your in the mood for a chicken sandwich from chic-fil-a (way to plug the job), but you kno their closed. so you go to mc’donald’s or wendy’s and get a chicken sandwich form there. its just not the same.
well, thats how i am right now. i want someone to be there, to listen, to be a friend, and their not. so it hurts, and it keeps me from truly appreciating the people who are there and want to be. i thank them for being there and wanting to be there and stuff. but the hurt remains, because i realize its the one i want.
so i thank God for the rain. now only if it (the rain) would wash away the feelings of hurt, rejection, disappointment, fear, and lonliness i feel. but it cant.
🙁 this is really sad. but it makes me appreciate rain.
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I have silly belief-if I rinse myself in the rain than those thoughts would wash themselves away in the rain. Touching entry C:
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GOD is good and those feelings too will fade …
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ryn:i found you on the diary front page. I think we can really relate to eachother.. reading this made me cry. Were you referencing Breaking Benjamin or was it just that old song? I know what you mean about the one person you want to be there isn’t. I went through that tonight. Ps: I am drunk so sorry if this isn’t making sense. I added you as a Fav. Too. Byeee.
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funny, too i did a background of rain of my picture of me and next thing i knew there was rain outside when i noticed later on. i feel the same way what you saying.
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