i dunnno wat to say

i think your the only one who reads my blogs (you kno who you are), so i’m writting to you. since i like talking to you and i need some sorrt of release.

ok, where to begin….ummm… i’m back at school in Chattanooga, Tennessee. i’m attending Tennessee Temple (not associated with Temple in Philly) University. I’m amjoring in Psychology, because they convienced me that with this degree i can get into any field. all i have to do is take more classes to build upon this degree. ummm… the school is like being in high school again. i mean, you have a lot of he say she say. people being immature and picking on people. everyone is in everyones business.  we have a curfew here, dress code, and some other rules that dont make since to me. but on a more personal note (this is why i’m writting you, because i feel comfortable with you) i feel out of place. just like when i was in high school, you kno. tryin to fit in and no matter what i do i just dont. i feel akward and alone, and so many other things, but we’ll get to that in a minute.

then, lets see. i thought having a new roommate would be a good thing. i got this guy (black this time) i was ok wit last semester. he cant sleep unless its cold in the room, needless to say, i love heat. he doesnt like gospel music, so i only play it when he’s not in the room. he cant be serious, because that causes him to have to deal, feel, and accept the hurt and things he feels. so all he does is crack jokes and watch things to make him laugh. then i got another i’m cool with, when he’s bored he just comes and sits in my room. i like to be alone at times. like the other day, my roommate went to a party, so i lock my door thinking i’m gonna get some alone time. five minutes later he’s at my door knocking. you wuld think there would be somewhere on campus i could go to be alone, but NO!!!

lets not even bring up my love life or my relationship with females and other people. i feel like every relationship i have or had ir fallig a part. everyone is getting on my nerves. doing and saying things to just make me wanna cuss them out, but (OF COURSE!!!) i’m too nice to do that. its like every female says i’m too nice or they see me as more of a brother to date me. i mean, wat the fu*& do i have to do? i;m not even asking for a boyfriend/girlfriend thing. all i want is someone i can spend time wit, talk to, chill wit. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME???

i’m gonna have to stop right here, i gotta super bowl party to go to. there is so much i could say tho. thank you for reading.