“Connected” New Character

Hello all, this is your moderator speaking. i have decided to name our little groups that will be meeting and conviening here. the group will be named "connected". because it was started on the thought that we are all connected. well, as i was conversing with someone, they decided to join the group and volunteered to be the first to share. please be nice and welcome him

Allow me to introduce myself, my name is Bret. i’m 22, from New Hampshire. as of now i live with a few guy roommates, just some guys i’ve met along my journey of life. they’re ok, but its not like we’re really close.
So here’s the thing. i feel like an outsider here. i feel like an outsider in my home (the place i live, and lay my head). i feel like an outsider at work, school, and most places i go. i feel like everyones looking at me and talking about me. i feel like an outsider in my own skin. i try to ignore this feeling, but no matter what i do it just wont go away.
i have people i consider friends, but those people are too consumed with thier own lives. i’m always there for them, giving of myself. my time, money, advice, shoulder to cry and lean on, damn near watever they need. at ANYTIME of the day.
i get no peace even when i sleep.
what is wrong with me? why do i do wat i do? other people would say i’m gonna look out for me, since no one else is. or why should i do for others wat they wont do for me?
but enough about that stuff… on to why i joined th group.

I AM ALONE…

i kno that your never truly alone, but hell. this feels like alone to me. i mean, it kinda goes back to my little intro. but, its something deeper than that. almost to the bone, to the very core of who i am. I FEEL ALONE… my tears dont even wanna come out and join me, they stay locked up inside. day after day, i feel like a prisioner to this lonliness. to this envading darkness that encompasses my entire being. no matter how much i try to out run it. i just simply cant seem to. it is as if it is permenantly attatched to me. maybe it is me? maybe i am this darkness and i am envading others space. maybe that is why it seems as if no sees me.

That is where i stopped him, for he seemed to get worse and sink deeper into watever is holding him. i know he is not the only one who feels this way. that is the purpose of "connected". share your stories, feelings, thoughts, triumphs, or just watever you feel. Bret and i await your responses.

Until next time…