2/27/07

ok, so where do i begin? forgive me, because i may have to rewind and confuse some of you if you dont be careful. because of this, i am writting from right to left today.

ok, so lets start with lastnight. i went to play practice we’re doing Arsenic and Old Lace,  i’m playing officer Brophy, its a small role. so there is this girl "T" wo is cool and i think likes me, but i told her i wanna be friends and get to kno her. i’ve learned a lot about love and relationships in the past 24 years and the most important thing i ;earned was…

*take notes everyone* be friends first. get to kno that person. take your time. if you are truly interested in a person, you dont have to rush into anything. your feelings shoudln’t change for that person no matter how long it takes for you to become serious.

*The terms boyfriend and girlfriend are just that… words. you do not need a title to define your feelings for or relationship with someone.* 

anyway, back to my night. so after practice. she told me that her family has a thing against black people, (yep, she’s a white girl) because her sister dated a black guy and he tried to kill her like three times. sucka that things like that happen and people let it affect the way they look at other people, because of the mistakes or problems of one. but it happens and you deal with it, been dealing with it most of my life. but i dont kno wat would come of that anyway. but i hope to help her get past wat her ex did to her. he kept tellin her how fat and unattractive she is, and she is so not fat or unattractive. but he’s a navy seal and all he does is talk about himself. she was too good for him anyway.

so after that, i met up wit "W" he showed me this building that use to be a church and was explaining what God had laid on his heart. he said God laid me on his heart and the words "for such a time as this". my church goers should know wat i’m talkin about. anyway, we got to talking about what we could do with the builing, because see, the guy that owns it has to fix it up and he has it set up in such a way that when he’s done he’s going to give it to whomever God leads him to give it to. the church also has an parsonage. so there are so many things we could do with that over there. then me and "W: was talkin about the fact that i wanna move to Chattown and need to find a place and a job. we also discussed my career goal to be an event coordinator, and the ideas we have that would use/need my expertise. only thing is we would need money.

ok, now on to the good stuff. "W" gave me a christian magazine to look at. so i came back to my room, for our nightly devotionals and while i was waiting i looked in the magazine "W" gave me. well, in the magazine was an ad that was talking about "what would your youth group do with $10,000?" and there was number to contact. it is a group here in Chattown that all they do is help churches and other non-profit organizations find money for their events and things. WOW!!! what an on time God.

then this morning, i wake up @ 730 thanks to a phone call from Goody’s. i had applied to them back in the beginging of the semester and had thought they had done all their hiring and i wasnt gonna get a job. But thanks be to God, they offered me the job this morning. so i should be working soon enough.

in other news today… *hangs head down low*
a female student here was arrested. every tuesday and thursday we have chaoel and room checks. well while doing rooms checks one of the RA’s found a deceased baby in one of the girls dresser drawers. Yea, i kno what your thinking. but you have to try and be understanding. we go to a christian university, her parents are probably christians, and you have to kno the pressure and things that come along with all that. Christians are so good at making people feel guilty, bad, dirty, and a host of other things for their sins or mistakes. that when you do mess up you are so afraid to tell anyone or seek help. i can inly imagine the pressure she felt to not let her parents or this school or her God down. now she has brought attention not only to herself, but to her family and to the school and hopefully this situation. that churches need to stop pointing fingers and start opening their arms and show some love and compassion. but i’m not going to get on my soap box today.

so, today has been good or the most part. i still hav some other things i have to work out and work on, but I trust God. why believe in him, if i’m not gonna trust him? you kno wat i mean?