Need advice

Yesterday was two years ago my best friend commited suicide and i still cant get over it.

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kat
December 17, 2020

So sorry it is hard

December 17, 2020

@kaliko

Thank you. I just don’t know what to do

 

kat
December 17, 2020

@transolvier you have to now live for two

December 17, 2020

@kaliko

What does that mean

 

kat
December 17, 2020

@transolvier have twice as much fun, remember them as you are having fun, and do things in their name

LCC
December 17, 2020

I have lost many people that I love due to suicide. I can only say that over time you realize that you quit questioning certain things, as hard as you used to. The pain will always be there and may not feel like it is diminishing at all, but you will look back one day and notice a little difference in the way you see it. This is about the best that I can describe it at this time, just over time, you find yourself smiling more at the memories that you have of them, instead of the pain of loss.

December 17, 2020

@ilcc

That is very helpful

 

LCC
December 17, 2020

@transolvier I hope that it helps you.

December 23, 2020

I noticed you said “Need Advice” and got happy to read your diary and do my best to give you some advice. Thing is, my heart sunk when I read your sentence. I have zero advice to give.

My Uncle who played a huge roll in my life committed Suicide after he moved out of my house, after I didn’t answer the phone, after… I don’t know. I know I could have prevented it from happening if I would have just known it was going to actually really happen!

My friend, same thing. I knew she was depressed. I drifted away from her. I went about my own life and left her behind. Later heard what happened. Her 3-year-old son was in the apartment with her for 3 days before anyone even knew.

There’s been a few more that I can ad to this.. my friends 15-year-old son, the boy who called me to say he was sorry for treating me the way he did over 20 years ago, …….

There’s not a single word I could say to you to help you get over it. Just know that Time does help! Know that you are not alone! and LIVE! Learn to LOVE yourself! Life has so much to offer you! Do all the things you think you friend would have loved to do! Have fun!

 

tight hugs

December 26, 2020

hello merry christmas.. where are you from, how is family and kids

January 24, 2021

My son died of a drug overdose 3 years ago.  He was talking about dying just that morning.  It still hurts, but it’s not gut-wrenching like it used to be.  Give it time and hang in there.