Silence in the dark

Tonight, has been radio silent.  For the first time, there have been no calls or text from you. This “new normal” will take some time to get used to. But I can’t help but to wonder. I can’t help but to still care, somehow. After all the things you’ve done to me, I still love you. I had no choice but to walk away. You forced my hand. You live in a world of fantasy while I was here, feet firmly on the ground. This was real. We were real. Your hands wrapped tightly around my neck as it compressed my airways, was and is, real. I loved you. I hate you.