Deleting

no don’t worry I’m not deleting my diary or anything like that. I am considering deleting my AFF profile though. I don’t know, I just think that’s maybe that I need to that. I Get soo many stupid emails and I obviously don’t reply to them. then at the same time its like there’s a lot of people that I just chat with. and so I don’t know.

I was talking to this guy and we is had a conversation and he was just like you know asking me why I was on there andI had told him the whole story about not working and Randy working and all that stuff so whatever I don’t know and then there was another guy that I was in the chat room with and he was just a jerk and saying stuff about being fussy about couples and I’m like look dude we don’t even play with other people I honestly don’t know how many times I have to tell people that. And sometimes the same people asking me if i am still just looking for conversation. Yes thank you.

Ugh I wouldn’t dare ruin my relationship by cheating. Obviously I get a ton of offers. The ones that are obviously a no are the people i don’t know. But the people who i have a history with are the ones that are the hardest to say no to. Like Leo. Hes obviously tried a few occasions to wiggle his way back in.

So has LJ. And then there’s James. He messaged me at like 2 this morning. But luckily hes at home and who knows when hell be back in the states. The thing is, like I said before, I haven’t touched another man besides Randy since October 1, 2012. That was Leo, and that was a really stupid decision on my part to even go over there. That night I realized how selfish he was. But I was still holding out hope that he would change. Then you know the USC game happened and we stopped talking altogether.

But yeah. ugh anyway. That’s ok because I met Randy right before the USC game lol. Good times. *sigh* blah i dunno. I just wish my brain wasn’t in overloaded mode. I always feel like I’m overbearing and nagging without saying anything if that’s even possible. Blah. *sigh* fml I’m gonna go check the mail and then i dunno do something with my time.

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