Some days..

 ..it just doesn’t pay to get out of bed!

It’s a cloudy, dreary day today and my mood reflects it.  I’ve been fairly depressed over this whole medical debacle.  Some days I feel like nothing is ever going to get better and I’m just doomed to feel like hell for the rest of my life.  I’m too damn young to be feeling like this!!  Regardless, I refuse to give up.  Giving up will only ensure failure and I’m not about to let that happen.  Today’s mood is partly my own fault, too.  I stayed up too late watching TV with my oldest.  She’s been so preoccupied lately that I was beginning to think she was bored of spending time with me.  She must have sensed it, too.  So, we just enjoyed watching some shows on Netflix until almost 1AM.  It was nice, so, I can’t really regret it in spite of how I feel, now.

My primary Doctor’s office called this morning.  My doctor’s nurse couldn’t understand why the vascular Dr. changed his mind.  She said she’s going to call his office to find out what’s going on and then call me back.

I’m so tired, all I can think about is going back to bed.  I hope the nurse calls back soon so I can take a nap.  

As for Monday’s Morons:

Today is dedicated to a certain vascular Doctor who raised my hopes for a better quality of life just to turn around and dash it all to Hell.

That may be unfair of me, but it’s just the way I feel about it right now.  Once I know all the facts (which for some reason I get the impression that I’m not being told everything), I may feel differently about it.  But for now…..he’s just a Moron.