Worried and Scared

It’s Leaving Day again. The ninth and so far the hardest. I’m really scared this time because I might not get to come home again before the project is done on the twentieth. We found out last Thursday that this week we may have to work Saturday, but we won’t know for sure until this Wednesday. If we have to work Saturday I don’t know that it’ll be cost effective for them to send me home for twenty-four hours, so they may not pay mileage for a trip home Sunday and if I don’t have mileage I can’t make the trip. The only reason they send me home now is it’s cheaper to pay travel time and mileage than it is to pay the hotel bill for the extra two days. With me staying the extra day anyway I don’t know how the math will work out. I could just be worrying for nothing, I do that sometimes, but I am worried.

This coming weekend will be my last trip home until completion even if I do get to come home, but if I don’t then that’ll be three weeks away from my friends, and I don’t know how I’m going to handle that.

I’m having lunch with Ember and possibly Sammie later today and it’ll be a hard good-bye, at least for me.

I’m going to miss them so much.