Went to see GR

Yeah. Critter and I went to the cemetery last night. She was having a hard time with the OtherGuy situation, somehow we’d gotten on the subject of breast feeding, which led to missing GR.

We were talking about how bad she felt, missing OtherGuy, and I told her that it was OK to miss him. It was expected, even. She’d made plans, she saw a future, and now that was gone. She looked at me and told me she didn’t know how I did it for so long. At least I know now that she really knows I mean it when I tell her I still care.

I don’t wish her ill, I don’t want her to feel this way, if I could do something to make it go away I would. I told her it does get better, eventually it settles down to a dull ache, and even that isn’t always there.

We stayed out so late. I didn’t get home until about six o’clock this morning. I’ve only been up for about an hour, somehow she managed to get up before I did. Either that or my status update woke her up and she’s faking…

There may be more to say, rather, there is more to say, but I have to go back and see what I’ve already put here and how much backstory I need to fill in. If I’ve left stuff out, then I may just let it be and keep a copy in my off-line journal.