The one where it snowed when it wasn’t supposed to

Yep, got snow last night. Not a lot, but I got to work right at 0800 instead of my traditional 0745 because of it. I think there was about a 1/4" or so on the deck and truck, a little less on the ground but it was enough to slow me down a bit. At the bottom of the mountain there’s a dead end, and today there was a sheet of ice too. No, it isn’t a good combination, and I slid straight into the intersection. Fortunately there were no trucks or anything else coming the other way.

I hurt K’s feelings yesterday. I’m not even sure what it was I did. I was washing a new thermos she had brought with her to put milk in it and she was messing around with some papers I’d left out on my kitchen table. I remember asking her to stop please, and when I turned to get a towel to dry the thermos I saw she was sitting behind one of my plants, being very quiet and still, and when I got to where I could see her she had the most pitiful look on her face and tears were pouring out of her eyes. I asked her what was wrong, and she covered her face. I asked her if I’d hurt her feelings, and she nodded at me.

I felt about two inches tall. I still feel bad about it. I couldn’t write about it yesterday I felt so bad. I just told her I was sorry and scooped her up in my arms. She lay her head down on my shoulder and I started crying too. I told her I loved her and I was sorry. I took her into my room and lay down on the bed with her on my chest. I just kept holding her and saying I was sorry and I loved her very much. I think she finally fell asleep for a little bit. I still feel like crap. She wasn’t hurting anything, the papers were in no particular order, and when I get a chance to go through them there’s a good chance at least half will get thrown away. I don’t remember there being any frustration or anger in my voice when I asked her to stop, but somehow I upset her anyway. I’m able to compartmentalize some; I was able to function at work at least. And I’m doing better at home, now I feel a whole five inches tall.

Upsetting a four-year-old for no good reason is a crappy thing to do.