Temptation

And it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time.
I want what’s yours and I want what’s mine.
I want you, but I’m not givin’ in this time!
-"Good-bye to You", The Spirit Room, Michelle Branch

We exchanged texts again today. She sent the first one, so I’m OK. So it came up that we both have tomorrow off and she asked me if I had plans. I think she was expecting me to ask her to lunch, which I desperately wanted to do, but I didn’t. I told her no, I was free and asked if she had plans. She replied that she did, but she’d try to "squeeze me in" tomorrow and would text me and let me know. I find it hard to believe that her day is so packed she wasn’t sure she could see me when she replied "ME TOO!" after I told her I was off tomorrow. I hope I didn’t piss her off by acting out of character, but I’ve been seeing positive results (so far) with the playing it cool thing.

And I just checked MySpace, and her current status is "time was all I needed" and her mood is "Pissed" updated from her phone two hours ago. Which is four hours after our exchange, so I’m fairly certain it isn’t directed at me.

But she’s upset about something. Every fiber of my being is screaming at me to CALL HER! FIX IT! RESCUE HER! but that would defeat the whole purpose of my week-old strategy.

But I *want* to call her…………………