Random rambling

I’m so tired and I don’t know why. I took a percocet and went to bed around 20:00 last night, but was up again at 22:00. I stayed up until midnight and then fell asleep again. My alarm went off at 06:00 and I kept hitting “snooze” until 07:00 at which point I woke up, took a shower and did the whole morning thing. I left the apartment around 08:00 to go buy breakfast and wait for my optometrist to open the office. I was supposed to be seen yesterday, but the normal doctor was out of the office and her substitute called in sick, so they said to be there as soon as they opened this morning and they might be able to squeeze me in. They did.  I can start wearing my contacts again tomorrow, but I’ll probably wait until Monday, if I start then. I have to keep putting the drops in my eye, and for that I’d have to take the lens out and wait to put it back in which would be a pain at work.

So I got to the parent’s place to do laundry and fell asleep right after I started my first load. I kept doing that, so it took most of the day to finish. The washer ate a pair of my work pants, so now I’m down to just one pair, and that pair shows dirt so badly I can’t wear them more than two days without washing them. I may have lost a work shirt. I thought I had two dirty and only one of them was in the hamper.

I haven’t seen Ember since around 15:00 yesterday. She’s been spending time with her family this weekend. Something doesn’t feel right with us but she says we’re good. Maybe it’s just me being tired from my meds all the time. I’d ordinarily stop by the store tomorrow to see when she was going to lunch and arrange to meet her if she didn’t have plans, but apparently there was more drama after I was shooed away on Thursday so I don’t want to cause any more problems.

My eye hurts a little right now, but I’m going to try not taking the percocet tonight and see if I’m less groggy tomorrow. I took a nap today from 17:00 or so to about 21:00. There was a brief phone chat with Ember somewhere in there, but I was a little loopy from being so tired.

I’m seriously considering stepping down from my manager job at work. They’re really starting to piss me off. The only thing that stops me from doing it on Monday is then I wouldn’t be able to transfer, including promotions, for another six months so I couldn’t put in for the big winter hire with the project group. Generally if they don’t pick you up in January or February, it isn’t going to happen so I don’t want to screw up any chance I might have of getting that. One of the stores in my district is starting a remodel on Monday, and I wanted to go but my store either wasn’t asked to send anyone or the new building manager told the district manager “no”. This one is close enough that I could have driven home every day and slept in my own bed and everything, but it’s still far enough away that they’d pay for lunch, and of course mileage is a no-brainer. So with fifty-hour weeks, free lunches AND mileage I’d have been doing pretty well to start the year off. It would have fixed the problem my bank caused by screwing up the overdraft protection on my account back in November.

I have a friend that lives with her boyfriend in Oklahoma City, and they are in fact covered over in ice right now. I talked to her on AIM a bit last night. He was supposed to be deployed somewhere for a few weeks (he’s a USAF officer stationed at Tinker AFB) but his plane couldn’t get out before the storm so he’s at home instead. She said that was a little weird, since they’d both gotten ready to be in “separated” mode, but they aren’t. They have to switch back to “together” mode with no prep and things are a little goofy right now. They have a fireplace, so I told her maybe she’d get lucky and the power would go out and they’d have to snuggle in a sleeping bag in front of the fire to keep warm. I miss her a little. Not in a bad way, although there is a romantic history between us that took a long time for me to get over. She’s the one I originally watched that movie with from the entry Movies, Geeks, and Cookie Dough. Anyway, she’s just fun, and she’s the only person I know who really gets me. Even Ember, as close as we are, still looks at me sometimes like I’m from another planet. Maybe it’s the shared experiences from our past: we worked at the same place for almost a year together, we have some of the same interests, and I’m a whole thirteen days older than she is. There’s more than that, but it’s a lot of little things that aren’t worth listing.

I’m tired and rambling. My eye is starting to hurt a little, but I’m not going to take the percocet. I’m really not. Maybe.