Oops! We did it again…
OK, in case anyone is keeping track, Dirty Girl and I are no longer a couple, and it’s for real this time. There wasn’t anything catastrophic, we were just growing apart, it happens. It got to be that the only time we saw each other was in the bedroom, and while we’re phenomenal together there, you need more for a relationship to work. I think that was the core of it.
There may have been some unresolved issues with me and the kids: they’re adorable but I’m just not ready, and she needs someone who is.
Hon, I need you to realize that you don’t have to go back to the way you were. You’ve changed. If nothing else I hope I’ve been able to make you realize you’re special, and worth loving, you don’t have to go from fling to fling anymore. You really do deserve a guy who will wake up next to you, and make sure you have as much fun in bed as he has. You deserve a guy who’s ready to be Noah’s and Phoebe’s daddy and I’m really sorry I’m not him. You deserve a guy you aren’t afraid to love.
It’s not like I didn’t see this coming, and for once my worrying was accurate. We’re still gonna be friends though, as best we can, but we may need to take a few weeks to cool down because trying to have dinner together as friends is what got us back together the last few times.
That’s pretty much all I’ve got to say for now. I’ve got to get some sleep. AmandaS is over and I don’t know what we’ve got planned for tomorrow.
Sounds like you made the sensible choice. It’s great when you can see clearly through the sexual chemistry to recognise that the relationship isn’t quite right.. a lot of people can’t do that.
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My own son has been seeing a lady that has kids, all but one is in highschool, the rest are grown. A cause of some concern for me, and he isnt ready for that. She is nice to me and all, but…. My son has never been married. I dont think hes the marrying kind. Who knows what the future will hold?
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You were wise, stepchildren definitley aren’t for everyone!
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RYN: Yeah… Sometimes I feel bad about saying stuff though because I don’t want to be one of those overbearing never let you do anything kind of girls. I don’t want him to talk to his friends behind my back and say things like “can you believe what she made me do?” or ” I don’t get that b*tch”. I don’t know.
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Toyman! I thought I ticked you off or something. If ever I do that, I expect you to call me on it because I know you can’t see my expression or hear my tone and sometimes then my notes might seem over the top so if they are you only need to say and I can explain or apologize or both okay?
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I’ve read your past several entries: HOORAY for your training and making more money! How exciting to be starting something new! Regarding your relationship…..am sorry things are not working out but it sounds like you know what’s what especially in relation to being an instant father. That can be a HUGE challenge for sure. I think it’s a bit easier for women because it’s our nature to nurture or something. I’m happy I got to be a “mom” to my stepsons but I’m not saying it was all a bed of roses either. Anyway….good to hear from you Sweetie!
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