I’m so ronery…

I’m so bored. Amanda C was over for a bit but she’s gone home. Ember is off work and home but she’s busy and I won’t see her for probably twenty-four hours or so. Amanda S isn’t answering her phone, so she’s either not home or snogging her man on the couch. They do a lot of that. Thumper isn’t on-line right now, so I can’t chat with her. I don’t have a girlfriend, so I can’t no-no her. So I’m bored. And frustrated. I don’t have any money so I can’t go to a movie, not that anything good is playing anyway. I can’t go to the mall because we don’t have one, and I can’t go to the only other hangout in town because I work there and I’m sick of it. I could go to the Waffle House, but they’d make me sit at the counter, and I’d rather bask in my aloneness in a booth if I were going to do it in public.

Ember thinks this town is bad for me. She thinks all the good potential girlfriends are gone already. I asked her if she was trying to get rid of me, but she said no. I hate to think it but I may have to move. Thumper’s been saying the same thing, but I didn’t want to listen. It’s just so hard for me to make friends, starting over again would be almost too hard to bear. I mean, I lived here for almost two years before I met Ember and Sammie. I knew Rah-Rah for almost a year before we became friends. It’s just so hard. Just as I’m getting settled I may have to leave again. I don’t want to go. I’m happy here, just a little lonely. I’ve got some of the best friends I’ve ever had, but they’re all coupled and I’m not. They always try to include me, and I’m grateful and love them for it, but deep down I always feel like a fifth wheel. I really need a girlfriend.