I just realized something

I’m completely flabbergasted. I totally forgot about it.

I’m depressed. But I forgot about it. My meds are still working. Beyond the occasional grumpiness and normal ups and downs, I’ve been completely fine. Considering everything that’s been going on it would be natural to have a least a small depressive episode, but I’m absolutely fine. Wow.

I can’t believe how far I’ve come (mentally anyway) since this time last year. I guess doubling my dosage was a good idea.

I really wish we’d gotten some of that snow. Even at the cabin there was nothing. Bummer. They did refill the propane though, which is good. I checked it last week and we were down to thirty percent, but I didn’t call because I couldn’t remember how long it had been. It’s been about a month so they must be checking around more often because of the cold.

Getting caught up on ER right now, For some reason it’s not nearly as "Must See" as it was ten years ago. It’s still good, but I don’t have to stay a hundred percent current.

I’m gonna try my best to go down and see Nala, at least for lunch or something, next week. I’ll see if I can plan my trip so I can see Ember and the Fuzzies on the way. Nala and I both like Mexican, and there’s a restaurant where she lives that she likes so maybe we can meet there. Hopefully it’ll be easier that way: her town, her restaurant, she has a better perception of being in control. She’d have been in control of things up here too, but she’d have been in a strange place with someone she’s never *really* met.

I can’t believe I left my hair color up at the cabin again. I was in and out, grabbed the mail, checked the propane, grabbed the coke I left in the fridge last time and bailed. I didn’t want to spend the whole freaking day up there again. I just wasn’t in the mood.

There’s something wrong with my DVD/VCR deck. For some reason it thinks it’s and hour earlier than it actually is. Not sure what’s going on there, it’s supposed to be getting a time code feed from the local PBS station so that sort of thing shouldn’t happen. I’ll check into that later.

This is kind of funny – Dr. Morris is running a trauma in some sort of superhero costume. Freaking hilarious.

I miss the kids. I guess I’ll get used to them not being here. Not to worry, not contradicting the start of the entry, just making an observation. Critter paid someone to watch K today, even though I was off. *That* is going to take a lot of getting used to.

I guess that’s all I’ve got for now. I kind of want a pizza but I’m not actually hungry so I won’t eat any. Of course I don’t *have* any pizza so that is a major boost to my sefl-control.