Gonna get it to her. Soon.

I’ve decided to give it to her.

It kills me to think what this is going to do to the kids, one more male figure in their lives that’s gone. I don’t even know if K will be able to understand. God that hurts so much, thinking of the pain or confusion this will be causing her. "Go ToyMan house" is the first thing she says every time she see me, every time Critter tells her it’s me on the phone.

I wish Critter would just *see* for once what’s staring her in the face, what she’s throwing away.

God I hurt. This is worse than the first time, probably because I’m fairly certain it’ll be the last.

I’m going to miss her so much…