Dinner

Ember called and woke me up when she got off work, which was good ’cause I’d have slept right on through until my alarm went off. We met up at the Taco Bell in town and we were probably there for ninety minutes before we went our separate ways.

Nay showed up, he works there now. He joined us for a bit at the table.

I’m afraid Ember and I are drifting apart. I think she senses it too, but I don’t know if there is anything we can do about it right now. She’s so busy with work, school and TacoBoy, the new boyfriend (she’s probably moving in with him down south of here by the end of the year) and I’m busy with work and spending time with Critter and the kids and the last few times Ember and I have made time to spend together I’ve fallen asleep on her. I feel really badly about that, I do.

She’s suggested I move down to the same city she and her boyfriend are going to be living in. My company does have a presence nearby so I could transfer, but it would put me so far from Critter and the kids.

I know, she’s made her choice and I need to let go and move on but we’re friends still, and the kids (K especially) don’t have a strong male role model in their lives right now and I feel the need to do that for her/them. I don’t know.

It’s getting right up on "absolutely have to leave right now" time so I should wrap this up.

I’m so confused. Ember’s like a sister to me, we all know (except for Critter) I’m still in love with Critter. I don’t want to lose either of them but I’m coming up on a choice and I don’t know what to do.

And this is totally not what I sat down to type, but I guess I needed to type it or it wouldn’t be there would it?