Crap

Found K’s blankie a little while ago. That was all it took and I’m not sure why. Huge crushing wave of despair and sadness.

Dammit.

And now one of the few people who read and noted me on a regular basis is gone. *POOF* She deleted her diary because of the security problems the site has been having, and I’m not sure if she’ll be back. I’m going to miss her notes and insights, I really am.

Ember calls me a glutton for punishment. Says she’d have walked away from Critter and the kids last year and that would have been the end of it.

But I can’t. I don’t have it in me, and I don’t know if that’s a good thing or not. We aren’t going our separate ways so much as I just don’t know when I’ll see her again since I don’t know when I can call and when I can’t. She doesn’t need the ex that’s still in love with her calling her while she’s with the new boyfriend, particulary only a day or so into the relationship.

I don’t know if I’ll be able to go in to work tonight, but if I don’t that will seriously screw up my vacation schedule since I’m due to leave right after work on Wednesday morning. If I don’t work tonight they will expect me to work Wednesday night to make it up. And I just recently found out that our district is the only one in the whole company that requires that. In every other district if a salaried manager misses a day of work they don’t have to make it up, it’s just gone. Of course if you make a habit of missing days you won’t be a manager for long, but for those times when you just can’t (or shouldn’t) go in it would be nice to not have to rearrange your plans because you have to work an extra day.

On another note, K is staying dry through the night now, and she even gets up to use the bathroom when she needs to. She wasn’t feeling well at all yesterday, something I didn’t clue in on until after we picked up D & B and she didn’t perk up at all. Critter said she was sick on Wednesday, so she may not be over it yet. She took another nap after we finished the Hannah Montana DVD and slept almost until Critter came to pick them up.