Apparently I suck

Ok, here we go.

I’ve got the last of my stuff in my truck and now I have to unload it before I can go to bed because I will seriously not be up in time to do it before work.

Tomorrow is my last day on days for the next year or so. My manager called me today (on my day off) wanting to know who was painting her store. I told her I’d get someone on it tomorrow, it’s not like I could do it today since I wasn’t even there.

Watching a thing on the end of the world right now. Apparently on the Winter Solstice, 2012 the world will end. It’s kind of cool that the Chinese an the Mayans both came up with that date independently. That’s going to be a really cool Solstice Celebration if it does. It does suck that there won’t be any Christmas presents that year though.

My manager has been on this kick lately preparing us for our annual evaluations. She’s basically telling us we suck and we aren’t getting good evals this year, but she isn’t either and that makes it OK. Yeah, right. I’m really looking to get promoted in the next eighteen months or so and one bad eval can take a long time to shake off. I mean, if we were being evaluated according to the form we got for our mid-year evals I’d be rockin’. However the form has changed, and we now have to provide documentation in the form of meeting notes and e-mails that we’re doing all the things we say we are, the results and my manager’s observations are no longer taken into account. Yay.

I pretty much think that sucks. For example: anyone who knows me knows I don’t care what bathroom you use, who you’re sleeping with, or how hard or easy you get a tan, I just want you to be able to do what you told me you would. Just live up to your commitments and responsibilities and I don’t care. That’s not enough anymore. Because I don’t have written proof that I am not a bigot I automatically am one, end of story. Never mind that I went to the “diversity” events I was required to go to and was told I have met the requirements of the portion of the eval. The rules changed after the year ended so now I’m screwed. For God’s sake, I grew up watching Star Trek and Star Wars and every other science fiction series/movie there was. I don’t even really care if you’re *human* or not as long as you get your job done and aren’t trying to eat me. But I don’t have proof, so I suck.

To top it all off I haven’t even completed my self-eval that is due tomorrow or Friday, I can’t even remember now.

I’m going to go clean out the truck and then start my eval. God knows I don’t want to get yelled at for that too.