273. Fuck

I fucked the married guy. Slash drug dealer. Scotty came up. I told him that were swingers… AFTER we fucked. Which was good. Yet weird. I’m so used to scotty. And now married guy wants to meet scotty. Joy. Another bang im sure. When will this sex life end? It’s too crazy
But scotty has beaten the dead horse. I literally think each day that goes by I’m getting more over him.
I’m ready to flee this state. But we will see.
I’m slowly creeping my attention towards my gm Paul. I didn’t play xbox with him for over two weeks. And now him and I are back at two am three am nights of playing and talking.
We flirt even harder now. Ugh.
I’m over guys. They all suck

I want Paul. I wanted the married guy too but the married part is a huge turn off. But he lured me in. Guys are scum.

I want Paul. I applaud him for not slipping up with me. He gives me that blatant stare. But we haven’t spoken one word about it. But i almost KNOW he wants me back.

It’s just there

Fuck he’s so awesome yet so taken by an insecure girlfriend. Why do these girls get the best guys. I really don’t get it.

–L