257. no call no show

 i havent sent ONE text.. or one phonecall to him. nothing. NAYTHAN. 

hes still soaking up some more rikki.

our last communication was me sending him "the couple is hitting me up" he replied "tell them another time cause im with my kids all weekend" i wrote "k" and that was it.  this was friday day. the bang we did was thursday night.

ugh. the worst part is when i get in to a sexual trance in my head picturing what amazing experience i went through thursday to all of this cheat shit on friday every day and on going.

fuck him.

fuck this.

i dont get it. what did i do wrong?

-L