time goes by so quickly

in april i will be married for one year. how crazy is that.
i cant believe its already been a year.
on march 9th my niece will be 2. 2 years old and i cant be there to celebrate, or even see her.
i miss my family, i miss my sister. I miss my nieces and nephews, and my friends.
my husband works nights now.. he sleeps all day
i have nothing
we have no money.
i should go get a job, but i dont know what i want to do besides child care, and all the child cares around here suck.
oh well.