buttheads.

my friends. yes again.

alrite, so we went to the city today.

it was fun. it was cold. it was only like 30 degrees outside, but with the lake right there, there was a very cold breeze.

and so we got there at 3. we went to navy pier. and we went on the ferris wheel, yah, the big one. and i paid for myself and for one of larissas sisters to go on. while we were on it, it started to snow outside, it was really pretty.

and so we get off, and we start walking because we were going to go to the sears tower and go up in it n stuff. and so yea, we walked from 5 until 7, and finally at 7 we found it. and its not like its hard to find, cause its like the tallest building, but once you’re not standing from a distance all the other buildings block it.

and so yea, some nice old lady told us to walk 2 blocks south, and then 2 blocks west and it should be right there.

so we do all that, only we walk 1 block west and see it. so larissa says, “well, since we found it, and we can see it pretty well right here, we dont need to go any further and we can just start walking the other way towards the car.” so that pissed everyone off.

and we walk 9820948 miles back to the car its freezing, everyones crabby. and we come back towards our houses to eat dinner.

no one would decide where to go to eat, so i said a place. and larissa said that was fine she just had to go to the bathroom and then we’d go. so she comes out, and ashley gets in the car and goes “chrissy, how about if we just go to Uno’s” and i was like, no waht the fuck lori told me we were going to the other place. and she started bithcing and crying, so we ended up going to her stupid uno’s.

and we get there and the cheapest thing is 10 dollars. and the only reason why i mentioned the other place was because it was super cheap, but it was a nice place. and so i bitched about the price. and lori started yelling at me.

so i sat at the table for an hour trying not to cry because my friends are a bunch of dickwads.

argh. and so lori dropped me off, and i said id go back to her house, cause we’re trying to get chrissy and this guy larry to hook up for the night. and yea. but im not going cause they pissed me off.

i feel like nothing here is going right for me. im going to be alone forever. ill never have anyone. ill never be anyone.

and i know its the wrong way to think, but its like. ugh. i feel its the only thing that i can think. what else is there?

im watching a sad show on tlc. about that lady that killed her 2 boys by driving her car into a lake. it took 6 minutes for the phucking water to get in the car. and ugh. i hate people. they’re sickening. poor kids. soooo sad. argh.i hate people!!!

im cold. verrrrry cold.

i love journals. they allow me to crab about my day and my life without having to make anyone listen.