and so, here i am.

What a lucky day for my open diary, I have decided to write.

It has been a while since I have even come to visit OD. Well, other than to check out one or two diaries.

I have given up the hope that writing in This diary is going to help me. Though, I will still write in it, on occation. When I feel I have something to say. When I started it I thought maybe it would help me through a lot. Its almost been a year.

Open diary has not helped me, although, Ive met some great people. But ever since I stopped coming to it daily I *feel* as though, things have gotten better for me.

I have taken up other things to help me through this. And if they work, I would much rather look to them than this. I do not want people to know my thoughts anymore.

I write in my journal everyday, my real one. And although I cant get peoples opinions on whats going on, I find it better this way.

But I will say that I have been feeling a lot better lately. With my occational down days. Theres nothing, at this point, I can do to stop those days.

Who knows, maybe sometime soon I will start writing in this diary daily again. 🙂 hehe..Im enjoying being away from it though. Also, trying to stay offline more.

So many things constantly on my mind, yet, this is just not the place for them. *sigh* -_- <–thats my new face thingie.

Anyway, I am going to go check out some of my fav’s. Since I havent since I left for chicago in december.

~Tomorrow.