I am moving past this giving notice

 

 

I know its been too far long since I updated on this thing.  I do sign on and read my faves happenings, but just haven’t found the vall to do one of my own.

Whats been happening.

I left my job at the start of November, we had new gm’s come in and its all family run, they were doing things really dodgy, and suddenly all these people started arriving and milling about in the background, looking at and making notice of things that normal people would take notes on.  Then all the heads of department started disappearing, only to be replaced with one of the family members.

It was all going to shit, I had a friend who was opening up a new place in town, and I left to go and work with him.
I just couldn’t relax… felt like my days were number and I was in panic mode everytime I had a day off, just waiting for me to be the next one called to the gallows.
And true, they had a new head chef within 2 days of me leaving… so I was on the block for sure.

Me and mojo are all settled into our apartment, and really enjoying it.
I sold my car, it just was a bit surplus, and I didn’t need the debt…
So I sold it and brought myself a scooter.  Its all I need to get around town.  And its cheap enough to get a rental for the day once a month or so to go to Cairns.
Plus it stops me from spending so much money by going to Cairns on my days off.

I have very little contact with Ike anymore.  He texts me, rather than I text him.
I am over him.  But I’m not over what he did to me, or the pregnancy.

I"m doing well, and have already made some awesome friends here, and just being here has helped me massively.  But like last night… I stumbled upon Ike’s profile on RSVP.. ( I am on there) he came up as a new member…
That threw me a bit… then 10 seconds later he emailed me, with a photo of George…
I didn’t go onto his profile… as it would show up.. But meh… just hate "finding" him around…

But yeah, this morning I’m over it again. 
Hope he can keep his dick in his pants with his next girlfriend…

As for the pregnancy… I am just "aware" of it.
How far I’d be.
But that’s about it.

I am seeing a man.  He is 36, a bank manager.
But its just dating here and there at the moment, I still have baggage, and he is going through a divorce.
So yeah, its just the getting to know you stage, but enough to make me smile.

I got an email from a woman claiming to be my sister on facebook 2 days ago.
She was born in Calton, VIC in Nove 1973
I was born in Calton in Sept 1974

HER mother was 15 years old, and devastated when she found out about my mum getting pregnant (my mum was 18)
My mum doesn’t even know that Mary existed.
I’m not about to bring it up in the daily conversation.

I’m not surprised, and I just really don’t want Mum to ponder over any of it all.

I realize I was probably the outcome of a drunken staff party ( I was sadly conceived at Mt Buffalo Chalet. Mum was a housekeeper. Dad was a porter. Born into the industry.)

But yeah… Mary and Kerri… hmph.

We couldn’t be more different if we tried, she sent me an email of her life history tonight.

I discovered she’s a 3 x grandmother, a bisexual, and on the methadone program after being hooked on speed.
I did mention there is barely one year between us huh.
Shes 36.
I’m not kidding…
Makes me want to chant
"Jerry-Jerry-Jerry"

She keeps calling me sister, and signing "Love" Mary.

That shits me.
What am I supposed to feel here… I’m not feeling like she’s a long lost sister.

She obviously has a lot of beef going on with our dad…

I am happy with my feeling towards him and that side of the family, I don’t need them, have almost zero interest in meeting them, but I don’t really need to talk shit on him, and his decisions.

I realize he had a drug problem. I realize he’s a bikie, and has probably lead quite an interesting life so to speak.
But he made his choices, and maybe (or not), he might regret not having any part in ALL of his kids lives.

But I don’t regret not having a dad….
Especially a drug effected Bikie for one..

So yeah.

Interesting.

Anyway thats about my catch up.

I will try and update more often.
Just have felt like I have entered into a bit of a recovery program at the moment… lol

Merry Christmas to all!!

Hope you all have joy filled days no matter what your doing!

Kip
xx