Hard to be soft, tough to be tender

I have been at work for a good 2 hours now, its  8.27 am, I managed to get 2.75 hours of sleep last night, be doing remarkably good.
i really really should be up to my elbows in food costings, instead i have been reading through my past entries on Od, and cursing the fact that there is such a strong blockage on this freaking accor computer system, as I really wanted to change my diary layout.
But, I think I am very lucky that i can actually get onto OD.

Ike’s last day at work today, he flies out of Darwin on Sunday morning at 1am… So we have tomorrow together, then its a long 24 days without him here to help me through the torment of living here in Darwin.
It has been really nice this week, overly affectionate and enjoying the time spent with eachother.  I am so in love with this man… I pinch myself on a daily basis that he is my Snuggles… How did I get so lucky all of a sudden??
This is all so new to me, which in its self is very sad, but it is. 

Too Much. Been together 8 months….

Can’t wait to spend this afternoon and tomorrow with him, its probably not going to be the best quality time together, as he will be pre-occupied with packing & getting ready to go. 
Me, I will be pre-occupied with the fact I will be Ike and George-less for a month, if all goes to plan, he comes back to do a quick road trip with his friend, and bring our car back to NSW, and I fly out the day after he returns to Darwin, then we will be apart for another week.  But at least then, I will be in Gosford, and it will be a light at the end of the tunnel.  I will miss him so so so much, its not just him, but living here is so depressing, and not having that bit of joy and something to look forward to at the beginning and end of every day is hard. Its hard to come home to an empty house, I will be cuddle free, from my man friend and my georgie… He’s a lump, but I lovdes da rorge, ( Ike’s cocker spaniel) 
I really should be working….

Will start packing on Sunday.  Getting organised.  So it looks like something is happening…
God I’m going to miss him…. distract me!!
Hope he misses me…I won’t lie and say that I am confident… Been left with a defective way of thinking. 

This fucking computer, I swear there is so much shit on here, in so many locations I can never find what i am looking for!!

Ok, thats it…
all the bosses are starting to arrive…

~Kipper~
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