full of evil clowns

They say it comes in threes.

I lost my job.

a:  Lost my "supposed" soul-mate

b:  Lost a pregnancy.

c:  Lost my job.

My Last day is on Tuesday,  I Leave for Port Douglas on the next Monday 17th..

I’m a little sad, that my life has changed so dramatically in the past 2 months,
and I will admit, that I am sad that Isaac will be 3000kms away.
I don’t know how he feels, I haven’t asked him.
Probably a little relived, I’d guess.
I hope he’s taken something from our year together….
I don’t know what, but I hope I don’t fade too quickly.

But Port is going to be healing, and I am beginning to crave the sun and warmth,
and "port-ness" about being back there…
hmmm, 4 Mile beach.

I am also sad that I have just found Caedy, who has been the best thing out
there for me, for some time.  And she has been the best rock for me.
And me in a butch lesbian shell… 

And Mark has nothing but shocked me with how awesome he has become,
and I never thought I’d ever say it about him, but I’m going to miss him too..
Had alot of good times with the both of them lately
And I have actually made some really good friends at Rydges, Rafter & Chris, & Matty, Dunphy…
They are such good people there..

But I hope that I will see them again.
I shall plan on coming back to Sydney every few months,
for a bit of hard-core Sydney action.

Other news.  
I might, just might get my first ever  exec chef job, in Port… had 2 interviews and they did
a reference check yesterday.

Apprehensive about being that close to my mum, but with shift work for the both of us, I doubt I will see her too much.
I will be staying with her when I arrive, and hope that she doesn’t try
to pry too much out of me, as I am still feeling abit fragile about it all.
And will talk when I am feeling stronger.
But hope that i can find something M Mojo approved…

And I am going to buy a mini…
Used, but a mini.
Maybe its my mid-life crisis… Or maybe its just a need to start over.

Its my thing.

So yeah, I am a mixed bag,
I am sad..
But I am feeling hope.

~KIP~