change?

 

 

I went to Melbourne last week for 6 days, and since then, I think I have had post holiday blues.

God, I love Melbourne, I just love everything about it.

The noise, cold, autumn, trams, shopping, gardens, coffee, food, …
I have since then spent and average of 2 hours a day looking at rentals, jobs, lifestyle.

I just get to this stage in my life when I need change and newness.
I have been trying to think of what has happened in my life that I have this need to change things so much…
But I have always moved around, since a baby, before I was even 5 I had lived in 4 different places, and I seriously almost do average a new place for every year of my life.

Contemplating…

I love Port, I really do…
I miss this place like part of my soul is here when I am not around.
I love the weather and the water, and the feeling of being so close and friendly and laidback.
I have dear friends here, who I love to have in my life, but I really don’t see them alot, that’s my job.  But they are there.  I love the green, and the storms and mountains around us.

But going back to Melbourne was also a shock to my heart.

I loved wearing my winter coat and hat and that feeling of the cold air in your lungs.
I loved the noise and the people. The sound of the trams.
All the autumn leaves are falling and everything is beautiful.
I miss seasons, I miss the crisp air and the colors, I miss the change of wardrobe.
Here you go from maxi-dress and thongs, to t’shirt, shorts and thongs, maybe a light cardi for winter…
I loved the amazing food and coffee. I loved walking down Brunswick Street and people watching and thinking how I could be anyone here I wanted to be, and no one cares.

I love my job. I love my team and I really respect and get on with my exec, but….. this job is going nowhere from here.  I can’t go up in rank. My pay is less that what I would get elsewhere, outside of Qld.

I hate the substandard food and the lack of care factor from some of the staff, and me! 
I have to be honest…Because the food is just "hotel food" I don’t love it and my passion is dwindlng.  I can’t change anything, there is too much Opposition .
There is no where else in this town that I would want to work at, the seasons are so different, and full time permanent work is very hard to get. 
It goes from being a ghost-town from Jan-June to being crazy insane busy from June-December.
But at least with that you can plan and take long holidays, some of the guys here plan and take up to 3 months off and that’s fine…

I guess rent is cheaper… I live in a 2 bedroom duplex, the people that live next to me are only holiday occupiers so they are never there, I can have Mojo, I have gardens and a pool to myself.

My $320 rent also includes a gardener and the pool servicing fortnightly.
If I moved to Melbourne, I would be looking at $400-450 for a nice, modern 2 bedroom apartment, close to the city ( I am looking at Southbank/Docklands, so walking distance) with a car park undercover. I have asked and been given the nod to about 4 places that will let me have Mojo. So that’s not too difficult.

But cost of living ie: shopping, groceries, petrol is cheaper in Melbourne, and I would be getting at least 10k a year more for my job.

I am thinking that being here in Port, is a: Not going to be good for me long-term.
I just never planned to stay here that long…. It was only the job offer in August last year that I stayed for, and I was planing on going back to Sydney, purely because Mark & Caedy are there, and I always have a job waiting for me with Mark.

Its an effort.
I am talking from one end of the country to the other.
Mum is still here, and I know I can always come back here for holidays and this kind of holiday would be what I need after living in the City.
But packing up and moving my stuff again!  Thats too much to bare.
What is I sell most of it, and move into a furnished place. 
Or buy new stuff in Melbs… just need a couch, bed.
How much "stuff" do I really need?
And my car… there is no way I would b keen to drive down there, I have done that fucking trip way too many times.

But transporting the Mini down?
Again, should I just sell it and then wait and see if I even really need a car?
Again, I love my Mini… but I can see my life without it.

I have 4 months to go on my lease.

I need some clarity.

Kip