Week one.
Week one.
And Ive not seen anything of him really, except when I wake up in the morning and see him sleeping on the lounge.
Ive had a whole lot of support from Brenden the sweetie; he called me every hour on the hour on Saturday to make sure I was ok.
Ive decided that I should write a list. It would help to know where Im at in the grand scheme of things. He is in no hurry to figure anything out, and Im really not in the mood to hang around.
Bank accounts have been separated, and Ive cancelled all but the internet.
Ive signed up for gayshare.com.au. Im not sure how successful this will be, as I hate hate hate the idea of moving in with people, or a person I dont know. But its there, and well see. Im not sure of any other sites? Suggestions anyone?
Ive made a couple friends already. This might seem odd to you but I didnt have any here when we moved, and never found any, I was under the impression that, (in my weird twisted brain), if I started making friends with random gay dudes that Jay would be offended, so I didnt.
Now I can, and I am.
I have this inner peace at the moment, I dont if I can explain it, this invisible weight is gone, and that gnawing feeling in my stomach is … well, gone.
The next cople of entries are going to be like this…
Ciao
Song for the day: Snow Patrol – Just Say Yes.
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hey been thinking about you since the last entry. Glad to hear you’ve made a few friends distractions are good. Keep smiling honey 🙂
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I’m glad they’re gonna be like this, nice and easy.
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I’m sorry that it didn’t work out for you and Jay, but I’m glad you’re putting things back together. Take care. Wil
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🙂 – – – –
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Friends are good. 🙂 I’m happy for you and happy you’re out making friends. It’s also good you’re at peace with it all at the current moment. Hope things stay positive for you. You deserve to be happy.
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I’m glad you’re getting back out there (and here!). I’ve really missed you. If you need to talk, I’m always available. Love ya,
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I’m sorry to hear that u guys have split up dear, btw it’s good to see you writing again here.
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glad you have some peace! This will be a new adventure!
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Perhaps you’ve found the reason behind all your mysterious stomach problems. You’re a winner, you’ll hit the ground running.
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“I have this inner peace at the moment, I dont if I can explain it, this invisible weight is gone, and that gnawing feeling in my stomach is … well, gone.” It’s before the decision is made that is most often the hardest time. Once it’s made, life can begin again.
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The next few entries will be like this. Who can blame you?! I only know of http://www.let-it-out.com for gay share accommodation.
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🙁
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I know exactly what feeling you are referring to. I didn’t have any friends either for the same reason. And I’ve made a few…and then we got back together. I still talk to some of them though. It’s a long process. You’ll have good day and bad – just remember what this diary is for 🙂
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i hope you’re dpoing ok
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