Week one.

Week one.

And I’ve not seen anything of him really, except when I wake up in the morning and see him sleeping on the lounge.

I’ve had a whole lot of support from Brenden the sweetie; he called me every hour on the hour on Saturday to make sure I was ok.

I’ve decided that I should write a list. It would help to know where I’m at in the grand scheme of things. He is in no hurry to figure anything out, and I’m really not in the mood to hang around.

Bank accounts have been separated, and I’ve cancelled all but the internet.

I’ve signed up for gayshare.com.au. I’m not sure how successful this will be, as I hate hate hate the idea of moving in with people, or a person I don’t know. But it’s there, and we’ll see. I’m not sure of any other sites? Suggestions anyone?

I’ve made a couple friends already. This might seem odd to you but I didn’t have any here when we moved, and never found any, I was under the impression that, (in my weird twisted brain), if I started making friends with random gay dudes that Jay would be offended, so I didn’t.

Now I can, and I am.

I have this inner peace at the moment, I don’t if I can explain it, this invisible weight is gone, and that gnawing feeling in my stomach is … well, gone.

The next cople of entries are going to be like this…

Ciao

Song for the day: Snow Patrol – Just Say Yes.
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January 25, 2010

hey been thinking about you since the last entry. Glad to hear you’ve made a few friends distractions are good. Keep smiling honey 🙂

January 25, 2010

I’m glad they’re gonna be like this, nice and easy.

January 25, 2010

I’m sorry that it didn’t work out for you and Jay, but I’m glad you’re putting things back together. Take care. Wil

January 25, 2010

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January 25, 2010

Friends are good. 🙂 I’m happy for you and happy you’re out making friends. It’s also good you’re at peace with it all at the current moment. Hope things stay positive for you. You deserve to be happy.

January 25, 2010

I’m glad you’re getting back out there (and here!). I’ve really missed you. If you need to talk, I’m always available. Love ya,

January 25, 2010

I’m sorry to hear that u guys have split up dear, btw it’s good to see you writing again here.

January 26, 2010

glad you have some peace! This will be a new adventure!

January 26, 2010

Perhaps you’ve found the reason behind all your mysterious stomach problems. You’re a winner, you’ll hit the ground running.

January 26, 2010

“I have this inner peace at the moment, I don’t if I can explain it, this invisible weight is gone, and that gnawing feeling in my stomach is … well, gone.” It’s before the decision is made that is most often the hardest time. Once it’s made, life can begin again.

January 26, 2010

The next few entries will be like this. Who can blame you?! I only know of http://www.let-it-out.com for gay share accommodation.

January 26, 2010

🙁

January 27, 2010

I know exactly what feeling you are referring to. I didn’t have any friends either for the same reason. And I’ve made a few…and then we got back together. I still talk to some of them though. It’s a long process. You’ll have good day and bad – just remember what this diary is for 🙂

January 31, 2010

i hope you’re dpoing ok