what?

This could all be a joke… or not!!!!
I get home to call Fabian my dear on and off boyfriend to say how much I miss him.. love him.
…..
I read a blog from Preston.  He is getting married he says.   He is moving to New York he says…
He is leaving me here.   He is leaving California and I will miss him and I never saw this coming no I didn’t!!
How do I feel??? Sad, scared… protective of him.  Oh oh oh! I can’t lose him this way.
I know I am not losing him.. but the luxery of having a fantastic friend around will be gone.  
Oh I love you deary!!! I wish you luck.