World War 3

" The dangerous thing about listening is that you don’t really know the effect it’s going to have. "

-Tori Amos

Well World War 3 went off in the house lastnight and mom hid for cover. Dad and I went at it. I won agianst the enemy. He plays victim really well and makes me feel bad for him for a little while till the compassion runs out. It was over my computer… And His game.. But like I said. I won’t the fight. Dad says he is taking his medication but I just don’t see it. Mom doesn’t see it either. It would be nice if he would become a little more productive but he likes to just sit. I on the other hand have been keeping myself busy but in doing so I miss talking to Jen. I feel like I am losing her so I think I will be changing hours so I can actually talk with her and maybe even hang out as calling her even lastnight kinda felt I was calling a stranger. I don’t even know what is really going on in her life so I guess I should play catch up. Then I found out today that I have another problem comeing into the home after Dad is gone. Mom says that Lenny wants to move down and stay at the house. ummmm I don’t think so. I know I have no say but I am trying to explain to my mother how bad and stressful it will be… As Barb and I hate each other….. ( and I don’t have to be nice this time since I am not living with them) and Lenny and I go at it because he tries to re- raise me. But see what I dont think mom and Lenny realise is that by Lenny moving in it is going to ruin there friendship with me there. Because Lenny don’t know how to conduct himself in an appropiate manner towards me and mom will not let him talk to me like he did in her absence because I will inform her as to what is said. Then there is Barb…..who can’t handle me and tells me how bad my mother raised me…. well we will just see how much she likes the south .I will not let them have control and I do not have to be nice. They are moving into my territory and I will be paying rent so they will not have a leg to stand on. Lenny will not be welcome to come on the girls night out and well he will lose when it comes to who gets the attention of my mother. So I guess I should start manning my battle stations. LOL The funny thing is that mom knows what is comeing….. Lenny don’t want me here when he gets here hints why mom hasn’t told him I am going to school because she doesn’t want to deal with his bitching. So as you see bitching will become a regular thing with him and I… Thats how it was when I lived with him but then I had to be nice and watch my tounge as it was his house. This will not be HIS house so HIS rules do not apply and I will not be deligated. That and I am not taking care of the dog for him and mom is afraid of it so this should be intreasting. Mom won’t go near the thing because she growled and lunged at my mom and she threw me in front , Plus she don’t like trixie.

           So I guess there is more Drama to come. I just hope that he doesn’t come down. That would be nice. I think he is comeing down in effort to become more than friends with mom but that just can’t happen. And it won’t . Mom has said nothing more than friends as I have told her what he is like when not around her. Besides he would not be able to sleep in my moms room with her if they did which would upset him. Because mom and I have an agreement.But anyway Lenny is just so not staying here long. And I am not backing down or going to hold my tounge…. I will not walk on eggshells like I did with him before..I don’t deserve that … So if he wants respect he sure in hell better give it.

 lets see… news on school. Well they are giveing me hell about it. I am running around getting all sorts of shit and well they just keep me running.  I wanted to start an online course but with so much going on I might just wait till summer and not be so stressed about it. So I don’t know whats going on.

Next I went to the eye doctor yesterday and found out that my eyes have gotten worse… I am worse than legally blind without my glasses. nice huh. I was actually hoping that reiki would have made it little better but hell no it got worse. Ok. Like I hope that when I go to an audiologist my hearing has gotten better but I have a feeling that too has gotten worse. I use to never get sick or have major problems…I feel my health had declined tramendously since I have moved back here.But who really cares you know. 

It’s All Good!!!!!!!!!!!