Stressed.

I am stressed today. My father started on me. He is in an arguing mood. First it was about my having AIM on the computer. He doesn’t want it on it. Not that it is bothering anything thing, I talk to families and work stuff as well as Jen and Margie which I just tell him are my teachers because they were at the time that I told him that and if I change that I will be considered a liar. So then he goes into the whole moving out deal. Since Josh will be gone and I am a bad influence he wants mom alone while he is in Ca. I want to get out of here and that is a goal but I have the car to worry about and I am trying to stabilize that situation. I have money problems right now that are scary. My father wants me to get a regualar job but I don’t think I would survive. I tend to get board and clash with my co-workers. I have a strong personality or I let them beat me up. Where when I travel I am not at any one place long enough for problems to arrise. So he can bite me.

     Then Cheryl called. She is the babysitting agency. She said that I need to move to Orlando. That I am availible but to far for the quick response needs. She says that she should have me move in with her and that she charges $300 a month. I know think I could handle that but I am just not sure about moving out there again . That is where I failed. I went under water in a matter of a few months.

      Anyways I got my new cell phone and well Cheryl has called at least 10 times since I have the phone. She likes the fact that I have reception in the house so now she calls although I want to tell her I don’t no longer and just not answer her calls so she won’t call as much and that she will call the house line.

    I went and signed on with another Agency in Orlando. They have work in the mental institution as well as the foster home for mentally slow and developmentally slow children. So even it is a drive it would be a nice change. I have him trying to get me into the regular Foster group home in Kissemmee. I loved it there and if they can schedule me a few days at a time I will just get a hotel and do doubles .I loved it. It was so much fun. Anyways I will let you all go .