Creepy Spider Web

*If you’re not sure where you’re going, you’ll probably end up somewhere else.*
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I have decided that since my lessons require one 3 days of journalising I may actually benefit as well as my teacher if I try to start my journal back under the understanding I am not to be reprimanded AT ALL about what is written as they are my feelings at that point in time and not to be held against me. I am not sure if I will keep this after I start it but I will see how it works and if there are any benefits too it.

Anyways I spent the last 4 days at Liz’s and had a wonderful time. I didn’t always sleep well but when I slept it was peaceful which makes it all worth it. Plus I really enjoyed getting to know her and having our bonding time. I prefer one on one interaction and I excel in it. I made some meals for her as I want to be able to give her what I didn’t have after my surgery and that is support. She is lucky to have so many people that love and care for her, ones that ones just throw her away into a nursing home like mind did. I think that aspect of my life still bothers me but not as bad as my mother not wanting me and perhaps that will be one of those wounds that never go away.

Well I am home now from that minor adventure and already wishing to go back. I was greeted with a creepy spider’s web that is best described as black rice evenly dispersed on a web hanging from a circular base of the same rice in straight lines of webbing like a chandelier. I am sure it was probably ants or something but my roommate said he had never seen anything like it. He took the hanging webs down for me but I took a broom to the base to insure no harm would come to the spider. But get this… there was no spider and Andrew didn’t know what kind of spider would do that. What makes it even more creepy is that it was above the one bed I sleep in . That was disconcerting. I texted Ruth and Liz but neither really had an answer. Ruth told me to write the story it told…. lol I didn’t sit there and study it although I can’t get it out of my mind. I have searched my room and not ants or spiders to be found so I am a but uneasy.

In my uneasiness I started to read my assigned reading and working on my lesson. I have set some goals that I will discuss later after I evauate them but do see some positive changes comming in my own life and know that this is part of it…. However the spiders need to be left out of it 🙂