Status Report for 11-6-7

Oh man, I just had a very satisfying poop. I had a good chem lab for once. I made – gasp – predictions about what should happen. And I was right. I left rather content, and became suddenly aware of a shifting in my bowels. Thankfully, I know where to #2 on campus. You know, where I can explode in privacy.

That second chem exam that I didn’t get a chance to study for? Got a 91. I guess that means I know the material, eh? I seriously meant to study. I will laugh if I study for the third and don’t ace it. STUDYING MAKES YOU STUPID.

I have two online exams tomorrow. I really don’t know what to study for. I don’t like hybrid classes. I feel a complete lack of direction. Merrr.

A dark-skinned female just asked me if I had cut my hair since I was born. I found her tone to be rather mocking and disrespectful.

I gave Victoria yet another one of my bananas. I’m bananas for her, what can I say? (I think my sense of humor just hit a new low.) She brought up what I wrote in the previous entry. I find it endearing how she’s thinking of “me” and “the future” in the same thoughtspace. Personally, I can’t think that far ahead. What will be will be. I won’t sadden myself by thinking of a time and place where she won’t be around. I’m very much absorbed in the right now.

Chatted with Alex yesterday. I’ve been latently aware of how one-way our relationship was, but I’d never realized that I never took an interest in her well-being. Almost like a smack in the face to her. But she’s never accused me of that. I know I’ve transcended myself and who I used to be, and who I was to her. But is it possible to move beyond the mentor relationship we had? I’ll never foresake that unique bond we still have, but I wonder whether it’s possible for me to truely see her as an equal.

Of course, if it is to be, then it will be. It has to happen organically. I won’t force myself to take an interest in her out of some perceived guilt I have.

She’s said it’s curious how Victoria is an empath, and wondered whether I attract empaths. Alex says she doesn’t run into too many. I’d agree that it may be because of my sensitivity. Maybe. Or maybe I’m just that awesome. Ha ha.

Chemistry lecture almost put me to sleep, but I’m feeling better now. Never dim the lights in a classroom, man.

Looking forward to gymming tomorrow.

Still need to print out those resources. I can’t analyze sources on a screen, I need to see it in print. Merrr.

…Feeling like I can crank out some words right now for my novel. Past two years, I stayed head of the curve by at least a quota or two. This year, I’m behind. It’s a curious feeling. I’m not worried, as I know I’ll recover. In about an hour there’s an advisement session. Not that I need help, I just need to get the signature that lets me register.

Have noticed a sex drive dip. When I tried masturbating last week, I couldn’t get an erection. Seriously. My morning woods have been thriving, so I know my penis isn’t broken. We’ll see where this goes. I only get to experience this month once.